sorry I don't post here. same as always, I have nothing to say but whining. of course no one is around, who would want to listen. I have nothing to offer, never have. I don't deserve any of the patience or grace I am shown.

aww my manager surprised me a bit. i joined our 1:1 today with my trans flag in the background and at the end he checked with me about best ways to address me and such. he only speaks in 'dude's so i don't mind it at all though now we have a funny dynamic where he keeps catching himself ^^

some things never change, never. i'll always be the odd one out. the one that doesn't fit with another, unfortunate.

same in school same in my family same as a nerd and same as a tranny. i would be the same when old, but i don't feel the need to stay that long.

i want to tell someone i love them so bad. be one with another like that. bonded without reservation. to feel like they'll remember it. remember me.

don't know if I ever will.

fallen angel 😇
having fun in seattle~

gonna be just a 10 minute walk from Cal An Park ^^

put in my notice to vacate the apartment i've lived in for 4 years now (on the last possible day of course)

now i'm finally committed, soon i'll be into the unknown, i am excited :3

hi, i will try posting/browsing here a bit more i think

difficult feelings today but trying not to withdraw entirely. trying to convince myself of something i suppose.