i know because you're a kind person it's hard for you to imagine such cruelty but these people do not view you as human. they want to torture you, to cause you pain and get more ammunition to torture you further every single time you react. they will say anything they think will hurt you. Anything

sawyer these people hate you so much they have openly said they dont care if you live or die. the cruelty is the point, every time you tell them about how much they're hurting you it makes them *happy*, every time you mention an illness they take it as something they can use against you

i might give SSRIs another try and see if the side effect profile is less untenable than it was in my previous adventures with pharmacological psych.

i am just really genuinely glad that the method is inaccessible to me in the moments where i am overcome. like thank fuck for that. i don't actually want to die. my brain just wants to kill me.

it's just the same old same old

keep those evil things illegal. i would use it on myself if i ever had easy access

she needs a psychiatrist. no bluesky thread or well worded explanation is going to help with this. this is not the behaviour of someone who is just mistaken or misguided. it's pathological stalking. engaging in any way shape or form will always make it worse in a case like this.

you dont need to apologize dear. i just know what it's like. some people are just ill, like pathologically obsessed. you won't be able to talk them around or reason with them bc it's not a rational behaviour. all you can do is not feed them any attention, because that encourages them to escalate.

you're feeding her attention through. every time you acknowledge her it pings a little hit of dopamine and keeps this going. honestly i doubt most of the people who listen to these cokerants even know who she's talking about anymore, her fanfiction about you is so detached from reality.

i can't afford to go get checked out for a while and i'm so afraid that my jawbone might just be rotting unbeknownst to me

idk why you even dignify any of this with a response anymore like sawyer she's never, ever going to stop. if she was going to stop she would have over a year ago. why do you even check what is being said let alone respond to it

there's an expectation i think that after a year or so and as long as nothing bad is happening anymore you'll just be all better but the nature of post traumatic stress is that it continues even when the stress response is no longer appropriate. it's a long term condition.

i kind of feel like the conversation around PTSD in pop psychology has obscured the long term and disabling quality of it. it's not cute, it's not short term, it doesn't resolve like the end of a feel-good movie. you live with it for years.

the internet can be a wonderful tool for information, for long distance communication. but you cannot replace your life with it.