However somehow I needed to get it out to the world and found myself here feeling a bit more authentic(!) with my small number of followers who has no idea about the woman I mourn for. Hello world, I wish I called her.

And it feels too weird to share these thoughts and the sorrow, writing about her in social environments which are crowded and familiar. I don`t particularly think it is bad to share and remember together but the process of posting a photo and a text about the person makes me feel like a poser.

I remember being similarly impressed by her words Renée quoted:

😂

wasn't onion supposed to be funny? this is just pathetic.

you know nothing jon snow...