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OK. I don't have to share conversations about trauma, some personal trauma, with you or anyone else on social media. If that silence offends you, so be it.
October 4, 2025 at 6:27 PM
OK. I don't have to share conversations about trauma, some personal trauma, with you or anyone else on social media. If that silence offends you, so be it.
Good. It's a job. It's a job. It's a job. It's not some airy cultural conceptual problem that we have to solve after which we'll all be safe. Thank you.
July 21, 2025 at 11:14 PM
Good. It's a job. It's a job. It's a job. It's not some airy cultural conceptual problem that we have to solve after which we'll all be safe. Thank you.
the hours and hours and hours of unpicking that was done. and how it continues to reverberate. the horror of it and the deep complex sadness. i'm just, once more, furious that that on-line silence is so often interpreted as the only silence that matters.
July 21, 2025 at 11:04 PM
the hours and hours and hours of unpicking that was done. and how it continues to reverberate. the horror of it and the deep complex sadness. i'm just, once more, furious that that on-line silence is so often interpreted as the only silence that matters.
it is a really sad, horrific, infuriating, tragic, ugly, unfathomably dark episode which has left a mark on many people in many different ways. so i suppose, the idea that it has just been forgotten is - well. it hasn't been.
July 13, 2025 at 11:58 PM
it is a really sad, horrific, infuriating, tragic, ugly, unfathomably dark episode which has left a mark on many people in many different ways. so i suppose, the idea that it has just been forgotten is - well. it hasn't been.
i know many people who were in some way friends with chris - as much as that is possible with someone who masks himself so fundamentally. he lived with my ex boyfriend and in another studenty shared house for a bit.
no amount of friendship could have cured him.
no amount of friendship could have cured him.
July 13, 2025 at 11:54 PM
i know many people who were in some way friends with chris - as much as that is possible with someone who masks himself so fundamentally. he lived with my ex boyfriend and in another studenty shared house for a bit.
no amount of friendship could have cured him.
no amount of friendship could have cured him.
but i feel like she tidied it all up into a neat chapter. and then told everyone else off. and then ended up with a chat with a famous male writer and - a suggestion that chris just 'needed more friends'.
right.
right.
July 13, 2025 at 11:51 PM
but i feel like she tidied it all up into a neat chapter. and then told everyone else off. and then ended up with a chat with a famous male writer and - a suggestion that chris just 'needed more friends'.
right.
right.
but at the time of the revelations i too felt sorry for these writers and the 'board' of chris goode & co (a phone call to companies house revealed that no full board had been set up) - and in fact the company had only one member. (i told them he was dead).
July 13, 2025 at 11:21 PM
but at the time of the revelations i too felt sorry for these writers and the 'board' of chris goode & co (a phone call to companies house revealed that no full board had been set up) - and in fact the company had only one member. (i told them he was dead).
that hero worship at the time used to sicken me. before the horror shock revelations, it just felt like gaslighting. and - well - we all know how online presence feeds funding etc.
July 13, 2025 at 11:17 PM
that hero worship at the time used to sicken me. before the horror shock revelations, it just felt like gaslighting. and - well - we all know how online presence feeds funding etc.
so. as you see. this is what happens if i start to spill words about this situation. the fury completely overtakes me.
July 13, 2025 at 9:42 PM
so. as you see. this is what happens if i start to spill words about this situation. the fury completely overtakes me.
which was a big part of the problem in the first place. the myth that people working with him agreed with what was written (by him and about him) online... this enabled his power to shift radically. reading her chapter made me feel a bit like reading chris's blog made me feel.
July 13, 2025 at 9:25 PM
which was a big part of the problem in the first place. the myth that people working with him agreed with what was written (by him and about him) online... this enabled his power to shift radically. reading her chapter made me feel a bit like reading chris's blog made me feel.
and i feel like, because she does not see that, she falls prey to that. and therefore, to some extent, is unwittingly perpetrating the myth that everyone around him thought he was a genius.
July 13, 2025 at 9:12 PM
and i feel like, because she does not see that, she falls prey to that. and therefore, to some extent, is unwittingly perpetrating the myth that everyone around him thought he was a genius.
yes. the fact of it was interesting. but it does not point out the yawning almost absurd gap that always existed between what was written about him online and what the rehearsal room was actually like. even in rooms where there was no sexual abuse. the extent of the myth making.
July 13, 2025 at 9:11 PM
yes. the fact of it was interesting. but it does not point out the yawning almost absurd gap that always existed between what was written about him online and what the rehearsal room was actually like. even in rooms where there was no sexual abuse. the extent of the myth making.
but the genius thing is not ever what i thought. with the artists working in those years? a horrible truth is, that chris goode was collecting a database of child pornography when he was working on telemarketing. and would have continued to do so whatever happened in his career.
July 13, 2025 at 8:48 PM
but the genius thing is not ever what i thought. with the artists working in those years? a horrible truth is, that chris goode was collecting a database of child pornography when he was working on telemarketing. and would have continued to do so whatever happened in his career.
yes it is. i guess i am triggered by the memory of spending hours and hours after his suicide, speaking with many people who had known / worked / lived with him even - over 20 years before his daeth. so so so much. and it does go into the process. i speak about it to students, to colleagues.
July 13, 2025 at 8:39 PM
yes it is. i guess i am triggered by the memory of spending hours and hours after his suicide, speaking with many people who had known / worked / lived with him even - over 20 years before his daeth. so so so much. and it does go into the process. i speak about it to students, to colleagues.
the problem is that just because she is writing about it, she thinks we should all also be writing about it. but she is getting paid to write journalistic books. and we (in theatre) are mostly not. she's doing her job. great. why complain that we aren't doing her job.
July 13, 2025 at 8:36 PM
the problem is that just because she is writing about it, she thinks we should all also be writing about it. but she is getting paid to write journalistic books. and we (in theatre) are mostly not. she's doing her job. great. why complain that we aren't doing her job.
i did read it. it's not bad. but it's also annoying. because it's complaining that theatre went all hush hush. when - i talk about this regularly. mostly to people to fetishise the 'collaborative' experience of creating work. which lots of people do.
July 13, 2025 at 8:34 PM
i did read it. it's not bad. but it's also annoying. because it's complaining that theatre went all hush hush. when - i talk about this regularly. mostly to people to fetishise the 'collaborative' experience of creating work. which lots of people do.
and the point is that this book likes the idea that everyone thought he was a genius. because that's the story she is selling. so she can debunk it.
July 13, 2025 at 8:27 PM
and the point is that this book likes the idea that everyone thought he was a genius. because that's the story she is selling. so she can debunk it.
but we aren't a 'few hipsters'. it's insulting. i founded shunt, which was far more impactful than chris goode.
July 13, 2025 at 8:27 PM
but we aren't a 'few hipsters'. it's insulting. i founded shunt, which was far more impactful than chris goode.
but being at work is not private discourse. it's work. it's the rehearsal room. one of my biggest frustrations (which turned towards one of the most dangerous) with chris was the idea that the rehearsal room is somehow a 'private' space. me talking to people in work situations is not a private chat.
July 13, 2025 at 8:26 PM
but being at work is not private discourse. it's work. it's the rehearsal room. one of my biggest frustrations (which turned towards one of the most dangerous) with chris was the idea that the rehearsal room is somehow a 'private' space. me talking to people in work situations is not a private chat.
+ I resent that I should devote my unpaid hours to online discussions about his 'genius'. This was the myth making of Exeunt and the blogging world. Think of the scene of people working in the early 2000s. The idea that we all considered Goode the genius is completely crazy.
July 12, 2025 at 12:37 AM
+ I resent that I should devote my unpaid hours to online discussions about his 'genius'. This was the myth making of Exeunt and the blogging world. Think of the scene of people working in the early 2000s. The idea that we all considered Goode the genius is completely crazy.
But it's just not true that Nobody Talks about him. I have had 4 conversations about Chris Goode in the past month with 4 separate artists. Including - my problem with 'check-ins' / false notions of collaborative practice / narcissism in relation to audience in immersive work &.other
July 12, 2025 at 12:26 AM
But it's just not true that Nobody Talks about him. I have had 4 conversations about Chris Goode in the past month with 4 separate artists. Including - my problem with 'check-ins' / false notions of collaborative practice / narcissism in relation to audience in immersive work &.other