diving under the waves for hours is SO fun. all my friends wanted to leave after 2 hours and it was incredibly sad bc i wanted more beach time :(( i love the beach

i dislike the anxious person i’m becoming while living in this house

apparently i “broke the oven” ages ago bc the power tripped (not my fault. i turned the oven on to cook. but apparently that’s bad) and now the washing machine is playing up and i cannot wait for it to be all my fault even tho all i did was wash my clothes!! but clearly!! i’m the villain!!

i’m so emotional bc even in 2018 i was wildly depressed and didn’t think it was worth it and now !! i’m just. i feel better. i’m so proud of myself

i have such a strong support network now. i am so surrounded by love. i am so endlessly proud of myself for pushing through and continuing to live. i think l little 15/16yr old me would be so proud of the person i am today

life is right now. i’m so much more confident in myself. i’m so much happier & just more comfortable with existing (with existing depressed, existing anxious, existing happy too). i’m diagnosed autistic & adhd now, i finally know why my head hurts all the time & it’s getting better

i’m feeling emotional bout how different my life is from the first time i saw twenty one pilots at 15, to the time i followed them around the country desperately trying to find worth in just existing, still closeted and ignoring being trans to now! where i am so comfortable with who i am and what my

the killer himself

same. i dont hella vibe w the lyrics (like the singing oops) but backing track is absolutely stunning and it definitely wins points there