Holy crap! Hope you recover well, and quickly

Wtf

Huff~

But I don't think before I speak.....I've always struggled with that.......but yeah......for anyone or anyfur who actually read through all of this, thanks for reading.....just needed to get some of it off my chest without hopefully it getting back to them and them seeing these posts....

For example when I get extremely nervous and feel I could get in trouble for something by my step mom I let out little white lies......which I extremely hate about myself, and know that is one of the reasons why she is so hard on me, because she hates lying....I honestly try not to.....

I have Anxiety, Depression, a low form of Autism, ADHD, OCD, and possibly a small amount of Bi-Polar? But I am on prescribed meds to try and help all of it....though I am making it seem like it's all just them causing the issues.....when I will admit I sometimes cause the issues as well......

I am just so done but am scared and am not ready for a big move yet, but have been trying to either find a roommate or find affordable housing here around where I live in Zanesville Ohio USA, I have just so had it....it's to the point it's effecting my mental health, which I already have problems...

And not to also mention, I have to eat before I go to work if I work evening shift, I am not allowed to eat if I work till 10:30pm when I get home, because it's "out of courtesy" that I get my stuff done and go to bed, also I have to pay $400 a month for living with them ($200 every paycheck)

Literally I kid you not, I have to be in bed by 11pm when I don't work late, and when I do work late I have to get my shower and go straight to bed once I get home from work, not to also mention they shut the wifi off to my devices at used to be 9pm (now 8pm) to make me get my shower and go to bed