(This was written on October 12)

Having been around, in my eyes, there's too much of a focus on being popular these days. Being someone who has been and has talked to those on the sidelines, I feel that there's a magic to letting those lesser known feel that they're not alone.

I've been feeling more comfortable with myself. This was the way I lived before my experiment. I am probably less known now as a result, but if I want my life closer to what I want it to be again, I’ll have to be more honest with myself, more honest with others.

I've been making a few changes in my life. I've leaned toward quieter, more intimate experiences. Trying my best to make those talking to me feel comfortable in an uncomfortable world. To give back to friends as much as they did for me. To start again.

And if you're feeling that you need a bit of time, that's okay as well. Sometimes light bulbs need fixing. But once you're feeling like you can, step out and start a journey - it'll help you feel better.

Never give up. Stay strong. Peek outside.

A wise friend once said to keep going strong. There is a lot of negativity around, and the void of darkness makes things seem distant and dysfunctional. If you're feeling like this -- when your headlights beam through, I'm sure you'll see well once again.

If you feel stuck in your place, it could be worthwhile exploring something new. It might be a new hobby, game or community. It could be something you didn't like in the end, but that's alright, for every experience sharpens the lines of who you are as a person.

Maybe the world seems to spin faster than it actually does. Maybe the sands of definition still flow through the gaps of my fingers. But at least, in all the chaos I’ve been through, a calmness emerges out of the solace of knowing myself better than I did yesterday.

I've sometimes questioned who I really wanted to be in this world. The journey over the past many years has been one of self-discovery. Talking to people, trying new ways - these have shaped me to be the person I am today.

You can try!

I'll likely continue laying low on social media. I believe some things need time to heal, while I try to find a balance for others. I'm thankful for the good friends who have been there for me, and sorry if I was overwhelming at times.

I wish to get the pieces together again -- I'll try my best.

Happy birthday Vanilla!! Hope today is a good day for you.

Hmm, well, it tastes musical :P

Ah yes, I did and it worked :)