So it *doesnt matter* that I cant make that later rent, they saw I was short the aforementioned amount and decided "nope, done".

And with that I have a gun to my head to terminate the lease and be homeless while also losing all of my belongings, because they have no interest in helping with that.

I dont think I am asking for help right now either, I just needed to share.
I will prolly go right back to distracting myself while I continue to get rejected for every job under the sun.

I hadnt reached out and asked for any financial help because I have nothing to offer or promise in return, it would very much shaking a cup in peoples' faces. Instead I basically acted as if nothing was wrong, and because of that its hard not to think of this all as self-inflicted.

Unemployment benefits ended in March and it was barely covering the rent. Meanwhile every expense that could come up did. And now I'm short $3000.
I have nothing Im 'good' at, so havent even looked into any side hustles to keep afloat.

I have no housing lined up afterwards, no job offers lined up and no income. And I've kept "quiet" about this all for a year now, Im sure its been bleeding through, and Ive vaguely mentioned my frustrations.

I'm still feeling like this, tho nearing the end of my options with no resolution in sight is more to blame than anything. Been getting told this entire time I haven't found work because I'm not trying hard enough. I shouldn't need help because I shouldn't be having problems :)

"Share what you are comfortable with". That's the problem exactly. I have no issue sharing every last detail. What exactly has been going on, just how dire things are and what I've tried that hasn't stuck.
But now I just feel like I shouldn't. There's enough going on. Why add to the noise.

Would if we could. I know better by now; ain't no stopping yah

Taking names w/ Mardu? Hell yeah, love to see it.