In the moonlight, through these flames, I catch glimpses of a silhouette..One that I miss...

Tonight my dreams will haunt me, yet I wish to not wake.
Just for the night..

I shall be watching.. for when the cherry blossoms gently drift my way again..

I will give you the same death as my old self!
To burn into ash, and descend from this place.

Let the world see your punishment! You're weak! Scream for mercy!

You will never be rid of me! Nobody will!

I will never vanish!

I will forever exist!

You..I have never been violent towards you.

But seeing as what your panicked state caused..has put my patience past its limit..

You took..everything from me..
You stripped away the one who meant everything!

I had to fix your mess, you're weak!

For that, I will punish you..

I'll tear you apart!!

It has been quite some time since I've seen this heart of mine...

Though it beats... it is not as full as it once was..

It yearns.. it tears..
But I shall keep it from breaking..
I will keep myself aflame..
I do not plan to back down.. not now.. not ever..

Pain is only a steppingstone.

Patience.

Sometimes I wonder... is that truly me in there..?

I don't always recognize the reflection staring back at me..

Ooga booga booga!

- Happy Halloween! 🖤

I should have reached out to them directly first...

My mistakes swirl around in my mind like vultures come for the dying..

I only hope.. We aren't being kept apart..

..I hope.. we all get to reconnect someday..

I hope.. this isn't all fucked up...

I greatly miss the laughter we shared..

After all of the delusional spiraling of mine... there is one thing...

one in the end of it all...

My love...
my feelings.. all of it was true.. in the amidst of all the chaos..

My deep love was not false and deluded..
nor were all my tears..

Confused of who I was but I knew who I loved...

My howls seem to break in the distance.. no returning echo..

I call out.. there is no answer..

I feel eyes stalking me.. but for what intentions..
Am I being watched and spoken of but not spoken to..?

Did I drag myself from the void for naught..?

Is my truth only silenced in the raging storm..?

" Flame engulfs the rage, burning ever more brighter.

I live on..

After a long dormant I awake with my flames rekindled.. my mind sharper than it ever was..

I'll continue to build on my cracked stones.. building on my horrific mistakes

Never to make them again.
Never to bite the hands again.. "