Sorry for the lack of updates. Idk if I'm having writer's block or what but the past month or two I've really not felt like writing at all... uuuowaah... but I'm pushing through even I work slower... cus idk what else I can do lol.

-sure are correct, or correct enough that my beta doesn't call me a dumbass.

I will reply to fic comments soon, trust. I got a billion things I wanna do and I'm not doing any of them rn ngl lol. 💀

(I'm more active on twitter unfortunately. Mostly BC I don't feel as bad for spamming there...)

Chapter 21 is done lol, it's just in the hands of my beta rn. I dunno when she'll be done though because the chap came to like 27,000 words and she has worrrkkk 😅

sorry for the delay though 😔🙏

I'm fiiinnnee... it hasn't come to anything, so I think I was just freaking out about nothing lmao 😂 ty for the concern though 🙏

(i did also think that perhaps nuCarlo is also quite the party animal, and often sneaks out to go clubbing with Venigni which father detests because company rival and trauma from his firstborn being kidnapped+killed. So P is the one to keep an eye on him at night... poor boy is overworked)

I imagine nuCarlo is quite co-dependent and clingy towards his brother at night, mostly bc Father forbids him from sleeping with him (he needs to sleep for work...). Whenever P tries sleeping alone, NuCarlo just sneaks into his bed anyway so it's easier if they just sleep together, maybe.

"All my Sons"... cuuuute. I imagine P is the happiest about the name because it makes him feel included and special <3

lazy hypersexual son Carlo spending all day jerking off and stinking out the bedroom he shares with P because father and his brother are too busy working to play with him... P resenting Carlo bc despite his issues and poor work ethic he's still Father's favourite... ok I'll stop now

It's soo frustrating. This type of fussy editing is the reason why I push things onto my beta or ask my readers to point out errors because otherwise I'll never get chapters out if I had to keep looking at the document lmao. (Also good luck! Praying you get lots of kudos and comments <3)

Buuuut this chapter is sooo important that it's GOTTA be perfect wwwaaaaah........ I can't let down all 5 of my readers with sub-par work..... uuuwaaahhh......................

Honestly 5 is probably a modest number too... it's more like 7-8 rewrites lol.

...But because I've been distracted, those edits keep getting re-edited because I don't think what I wrote was "good" enough lmao. It's a cycle... I really need to move the fuck on from this one part fr. 🤦‍♀️

It diddddd thank youuu~~~
I'm so tired lol
(8pm nap incoming... sleep schedule: ruined (again))

Also damn I'll def ask for recs in the future, Ty!!
And your right! I don't necessarily think reading a lot is particularly helpful if you're not retaining anything... kinda why I don't read tbh because I'm worried I might just instantly forget what I've read and feel like I've wasted my time 💀

Hey 5k isn't anything to downplay, that's still a fuckton of words lol! Quality over quantity, my friend...
(Never thought I'd write 200k myself. 💀 It spiraled out of control... but dw you'll get the same brainworm one day and write a fucking novel, I believe in you) 😭🙏

I really need to get back into reading books
It's kind of embarrassing that despite being a (hobbyist) writer, I don't actually read aside from the odd fanfic... which is very bad for self-improvement 😩 maybe it can be my new year's resolution...

Uooooogh that sends me into a raaaaggeee
especially when I tap a vid and it makes me like it dude no wtf let me skipppp
why are we like this