Also, on the back of my head, I've been thinking about continuing with the intro to web dev program i was selected do, onky on Fridays, bc i haven6had the chance to follow thru everyday 1h each, unsustainable for me 😭 but we'll see

Anxious. I'm trying to take my time, ve patient6and hope for the best. I've been feeling pressure to get a job ASAP but I don't feel skilled enough, and I don't wanna do Customer service again for a while at least

As a rehearsal or something hehe
I should complete that between Friday and the 16th 😅
Also, I decided to study the Junior Cybersecurity analyst path by Cisco. I can't pay the certification exam atm, but i surely can take the course. It's set to be 120h long 😭 but I'm also trying not to rush and get

And I was able to complete thr 1st Design Thinking course from IBM with the practitioner badge 🎉 yay me i guess!
What's next: on the 16th I start a Scrum Master course, that takes 6 weeks and I'm nervous about it... But I decided to take the free certiprof certification of Scrum foundations...

I'm jealous my partner has various groups of friends they can turn to anytime, they can hang out any time, they can call any time, while I'm just lonely. Lonely. Lonely. Lonely.

Like, more often than not i feel i have literally nothing to tell them, nothing new to say in out interactions... And I crave a conversation, a lot, but as soon as i open my mouth nothing comes out. And I am longing for having somebody around, like a "best friend"

Still I feel irremediable lonely. I have no friends. The ones that I have and I talk to a but often ate my ex roommates, but I feel they're so disconnected from them and the other way around. I have nobody else and I feel unable to connect with my partner as well. Idk idk

And it's weird bc I'm the best I've ever been: me and my partner been together for 3 years now, we have 4 dogs, we rent a nice place, i have my plants, I'm doing nice things for my self and professional development, some of my family relationships have improved... Yk stuff like that...

2 years ago (and almost every year) it felt like this dragging unbearable reminder that I shouldn't be born, that I'm not supposed to be here. This year it feels like... A reminder that I'm all alone, a reminder of an endless, painful, inhabilitating solitude...

And today it hit me that's September already. I don't celebrate my birthday. I mean, i have but more because other people come around to do something or to just say "HB" yk. But idk, atp I don't really know what is it about it that depresses me so much and so hard

Anyway, the course takes 6 weeks, it's set to finifh by October 26 I think... and right after I finish I'm forcing myself to start applying to jobs right away, although I don't feel prepared to apply for webdev positions... wish me luck

Since I'm currently unemployed, my partner helped me pay for it, I know I'll pass the exam... but my mind keeps telling me "what if I don't? All that money to waste and wasn't even yours" 🥶

lol this post feels like linkedin lmao tho I genuinely feel this 😅

Today, I'm starting the UX/ #UIDesign course while still learning #Webdev!
This week I've also worked on two basic and little HTML projects for the pilot program I'm taking with another organization. I feel very productive lol and excited! 🥰

but yeah, point is idk if 3h a day is enough or mediocre lol

lol x2 jajajajaj. tambièn hablo inglès desde toda mi vida aunque no parece xD entonces siempre hago spanglish
pero sí, que bonito conectar. muchos exitos en tu journey💐🪄

The first 2 were almost 3 months long each, while the last 2 only a few weeks. Now I'm on my way to finish the career paths from IBM. Hopefully I'll be done in a couple months to start applying for jobs 🎉 🎉 🎉