my parents are deep in denial. they believe it's because of my long hair

i say my deadname which is clearly masc, and some people still ask me my pronouns or gender me fem (which is a win, it’s just that idk what to do and i’m not used to it yet lol)

not at all. i have toxic relationships with some people in my life and i still have a hard time recognizing it

i used to be able to eat a box of 30 rice krispies treats in an evening and still want more. now, i eat a box of 8, and i am satisfied haha

they can continue dreaming about their boy five years ago who was an empty shell, undiagnosed, without a hobby, without friends... that kid doesn't exist anymore

my dad always tell me i'm "sick [deadname]" (i didn't tell them my preferred name yet). can i just be me me sometimes?

they wonder why i never tell them anything personal to them. well, it might be because they are using what i tell them to hurt me. i never get to discuss about random things with my parents. it's always about my challenges and they make me feel like i'm a nuisance

they only talk about their needs and never listen to me. they constantly remind me of how i was a good kid five fucking years ago, and how one day, i'll thank them for their help. it's so toxic. sure, i have major issues that are impacting them, but they are my parents. i'm not their parent