But this time was different. I felt special and loved by the people around me. I realized I am needed here.

Of course, the nightmares still came when I laid down. But through those dreams, I could see the darkness my thoughts might lead to if I let them win. And I don’t want to live in that fear.

Lately, I’ve felt so exhausted by the fight that I thought about letting it consume me.

I asked myself who I am to the world and whether anyone would truly need me here. I imagined how everyone’s lives would move on without me.

I’m still afraid to be transparent about my anxiety, because no one truly understands the beast it can become unless they’ve faced it themselves. It can isolate you, turn you against your friends, and build walls that block intimacy.

do my best to help others heal theirs.

I’m still afraid to be transparent about my anxiety, because no one truly understands the beast it can become unless they’ve faced it themselves.

Ohhh charmed is so good