And amongst everything... I am now extra worried for my mom... I don't know what I'd do without her... whether right now or in the future...

Man...

Even with all the fights and his irritability... I miss him. I miss my dad... I would give everything to just talk to him one more time...

I just wish I could've told him goodbye when I left for work...

Granted, issue number 1 was a solid 100 out of 100 on the awfulness scale, but now that I don't feel like crying the entire time anymore something goes wrong again... a 25 out of 100 can still make things worse again.

I hate this.

I am honestly surprised with myself that I am not more traumatized, but my heart still skips a beat when I walk past or into the bathroom... That's where I found him...

Ugh, sorry guys, I know, but I needd to vent real bad... REAL bad...

Fuck, I don't think I'll be able to sleep that well tonight... i'll try, but..... man... how could I possibly?

Good news is my boss was very understanding (he should be, our small company is only me and him rn) so i'm actually staying at home for the rest of the week, at the very least...

... not really a vacation though...

Got tired of trying to sleep with no success, so I stared at the ceiling and wall... Then got tired of that and tried playing video games, but that only marginally worked...

Everything is different...

I heard the shiny sparkle sound and immediately threw pokeballs in all directions like "WHERE IS IT AAAAA" but I eventually found it! WOOP!

First impression: Runs a lot better, even on the Switch 1. Maybe Game Freak learned a thing or two from Scarled and Violet?