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in my heated rivalry brainrot era
i like angst, eddie diaz, and ilya rozanov
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i promise to write as fast as i can manage! i’m at 2k!!
a cheeky little snippet. there are 2,171 words on the document. behind that, a few words are visible, reading: towards the door “I should go.” “Wait!” Shane sa we friends?” he something, right? “No, Hollander.” “But you came h “League send me “Oh.” The sting Maybe Rozanov made him out to Still. He hesitates afterthought, he you on the ice soo And then he’s go Ilya Rozanov wo not run from the He walks out on not quake. They into the sun, and chest. He breathe about Shane’s da them. Cliff Marlow is “How is he?”
December 2, 2025 at 4:12 AM
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how it started vs how it’s going
a tweet that says: hr spoilers / / / so where's the fic where the concussion shane gets in ch21 leaves him w amnesia and he doesn't remember the last few years w ilya and all he has is everyone telling him about their rivalry and his text chain with Lily. bc i need that bad. pre-cottage. pre-coming out. pre-feelings confessions. what does ilya *do* with himself. a screenshot of a heated rivalry fanfic work in progress. it reads: Rozanov nods once. "I was looking forward to last night," he says, soft. His pinky finger touches the back of Shane's hand, just barely, feather light, as if Shane was something fragile. "To what, beating me?" he says, and it sounds wrong to his own ears, but he can't put his finger on why. His pulse races under his skin. "Yes." "Asshole." The word rolls off his lips easily. There are a lot of questions on the tips of his tongue, bubbling in his chest, and they nearly spill over when Rozanov meets Shane's eyes, something like humor dancing behind them. Something is—off, that has nothing to do with the floaty feeling of the painkillers in his system. Rozanov is looking at him, and his gaze is weighted, pinning him in place. There are bags under his eyes and his pinky is hooked onto Shane's and there's something at the edge of Shane's consciousness, like chasing a dream, that's telling him he's missing something, he's supposed to remember something— "I'm sorry," Shane stammers out. "Did we have plans or something scheduled for last night? I'm having some trouble remembering." Rozanov freezes. "…..you have a concussion." He doesn't phrase it like a question, but Shane answers it all the same. "Yeah." "You don't remember me." "Should I?" Shane laughs awkwardly. Rozanov's face remains carefully blank. "I'm sure we had our moments throughout the years of playing together, but-are we friends?" There was no evidence that they were. His mom had said they weren't. When Shane looked through his phone against doctors orders he hadn't seen Rozanov in his contacts. Shane had even googled the two of them, and the only photos that came up were from award nights and professional photo shoots. Nothing casual. Nothing to suggest they ever hung out outside of the ice. "How long?" Rozanov asks. "How long what?" "What is the last thing you remember?" If his arm weren't in a sling, he'd shrug. "I don't know," he lies. Rozanov's eyes narrow, and Shane's tongue unsticks itself to answer truthfully. "We met at the World Junior Hockey Championships. Your team beat the shit out of mine." Rozanov finally takes his hand back, and there's no reason why Shane feels bereft at the loss, but something in him quiets anyway. "That was eleven years ago," Rozanov says. His voice has gone gruff, his accent thickening as he swallowed his vowels. Shane couldn't even begin to understand what that meant, so he doesn't try. "Feels like yesterday."
December 1, 2025 at 6:28 AM
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an "i—oh, wait," meme
December 1, 2025 at 5:33 AM
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final graphs bc i love to look at em
two line graphs plotting my progress. the first one is my daily work, where the goal was at least 1,667 words a day. my line is very squiggly, sometimes below goal, sometimes way above. the second line graph is of the total progress made. in the end, i ended up with a draft that's 50,147 words long (out of an original goal of 50k)
December 1, 2025 at 5:07 AM
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i’m seated. the ao3 employees are scared and asking me to leave because it’s “not written yet” but i’m simply too seated
November 30, 2025 at 11:21 PM
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that cancelled show you never stop thinking about.....
a poster for Julie and the Phantoms
November 30, 2025 at 10:06 PM
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nov 27
+3,636 / 45,064 total

i WILL be making these lines touch istg
a line graph with my overall progress so far. a dark blue line is the goal, and a green line is my actual progress. as of november 28th, i'm at 45,064 out of 50,000 words with 2 days to go
November 29, 2025 at 8:23 AM
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it was ilya’s idea to do the commercial together
idr if that detail is in the book but i am sooo
a still from 9-1-1 that says caller: AAAAAAH!
November 28, 2025 at 5:20 AM
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my friends host a fantasy-football style league for movie awards season and this is my team's draft
Best Picture - Wicked: For Good Director - Paul Thomas Anderson, One Battle After Another Actor - Wagner Moura, The Secret Agent Actress - Amanda Seyfried, The Testament of Ann Lee Supp Actor - Jacob Elordi, Frankenstein Supp Actress - Ariana Grande, Wicked: For Good & Elle Fanning, Sentimental Value Original Screenplay - Is This Thing On? Adapted Screenplay - No Other Choice Cinematography - Testament of Ann Lee Editing - Bugonia Original Score - F1 Animated Feature - Scarlet Catch-All - Marty Supreme
November 24, 2025 at 1:37 AM
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i am giving in to peer pressure
the cover for heated rivalry by rachel reid
November 23, 2025 at 11:34 PM
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actors got me flowers for opening 🥹
i am holding a single red rose, and a small bouquet of red, pink, and orange carnations with white babys breath.
November 22, 2025 at 2:47 AM
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happy first day of tech
spongebob crash out meme (chuckles) i’m in danger meme meet the rombinson’s goob staring with bags under his eyes spongebob in silent hill meme
November 19, 2025 at 2:46 PM
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the game is good and exciting and dramatic obvs but i'm also having fun wheres-waldo-ing myself in the background lol
a zoomed-in blurry photo of someone with split-dyed hair in a pink jumpsuit.
November 13, 2025 at 6:49 PM
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nov 10
+1,712 / 11,862 total
it's day 10, have a snippet to celebrate
He looked at me for a beat and then handed them over. I took a glance at the first page. [title] was bolded at the top. I felt myself grin. “Well, Mr. Ullman, I think you can call yourself a playwright.” If he were alive for it, I think he would’ve blushed. He ducked his head as his lips turned up involuntarily. “Don’t get too ahead of yourself, now.” “I mean it,” I said, waving the pages towards him. “You wrote a play.” “I haven’t written the ending.” “But you will,” I promised. He smiled, shy and small. “Yeah, I will.”
November 11, 2025 at 7:18 AM
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god i love it when he cries

warning for angst and also vague 9x05 spoilers
No, it wasn’t until Chris was gone and Eddie was alone that he let himself break. The force of it nearly knocked him over; it brought him to his knees, hands clutching at the wood of the table as he cried silently, struggling to breathe. He knelt there, knees on hardwood, forehead pressed to the floor, hands raised above his head gripping the altar, and he begged. Please. Please, please, please, please. He didn’t know what he was begging for. It’s possible it didn’t matter, because no one was listening after all. Still, he pressed the word into the floor as his fingernails dug into the paint, his hands going numb. He gasped, and he begged, and he cried, and he cried, and he cried, until he couldn’t anymore. Eventually, he placed his hands on the floor and stood up on numb legs. He collapsed on the couch. His eyes hurt and he could feel the tears and snot drying on his face, and he was breathing in little hiccups, stilted, in a way that did nothing to clear his head and he thought, why? Thought, why did you have to take her from me? Thought, why do you keep taking people from me, the people who make me happy? Abuelo, and Shannon, and Bobby, and now—Don’t I get to feel joy? Don’t I get to be loved? Please—What did I do? What did I do wrong? Why do I get dealt the shit end of the stick, every time? Did I do something to deserve this? Please, I don’t want to feel this way—I can’t take it, please, why is this happening? It’s so much, it’s too much, I can’t do this again—Please, please, don’t I get to be happy? When is it my turn? Please, God, I just want to be— He fell asleep without meaning to.
November 7, 2025 at 7:34 AM
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lisa simpson crying meme
November 7, 2025 at 4:52 AM
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according to Gameday
A screenshot of GameDay that says "Blue Jays challenged (force play), call on the field was upheld: Daulton Varsho grounds into a force out, second baseman Miguel Rojas to catcher Will Smith. Isiah Kiner-Falefa out at home. Addison Barger to 3rd. Alejandro Kirk to 2nd. Daulton Varsho to 1st."
November 2, 2025 at 3:50 AM
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i’m wearing one of those full-body animal onesies (that are more like pjs) instead of an actual thought out costume and i was feeling bad about it until i stepped outside. i made the right choice jfc
the temperature is 50 degrees fahrenheit, but the wind makes it feel like 37.
October 31, 2025 at 10:57 PM
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it looks like buck was moving in in the promo. so. where's he been staying all this time???
squidward begging meme with the caption "buddie roommates crumbs?"
October 31, 2025 at 1:13 AM
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someone just said this is why she patrols alone
a figure lying on her back in a pool of tears
October 31, 2025 at 12:15 AM
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painting of a werewolf sitting against a tree, arms on her knees, looking forlornly into the distance
October 30, 2025 at 4:33 PM
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today’s excursion
a beetlejuice playbill
October 29, 2025 at 7:18 PM
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muted accounts don't show up in my feed (but i can still find their account by searching). if they comment on my posts, i don't get notified, but if i see that a reply is there i can view it by clicking this
a hidden reply
October 29, 2025 at 1:04 AM
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went to another trivia night instead of watching tonight’s episode but it haunted me
Question: "Lonestar" and "Nashville" are spin-offs in the universe of what procedural drama TV series? Submitted answer: 9-1-1
October 24, 2025 at 2:10 AM
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i may not be good at math, but something about this doesn't seem right....
A website says "Save 15%". The original price tag of $2,200 is crossed out and greyed. The new price is $2,970.
October 22, 2025 at 4:56 PM