if i get a chance irl i do want to be like "hey wtf is up stop this". but also i just feel like it won't even do anything. like theres been so much "you have a substance problem" talk that leads to fuck all every time its frustrating but also theres rly no option to not have them live there

+ substance issues that lead to the behavior that is deemed unsafe. and then also making the other roommates uncomfortable. but then talking does nothing when they arent sober but then when they are sober they talk like they understand the boundaries fully. and also dont do it around me or to me.

i think i learned about hearts and friendship or something

i thought the la meant large adult but nope! large adolescent! what the fuck are we doing this feels so gross. it at least doesnt seem to exist on the site in this name anymore but there are still plaid skirted student costumes that give me weird vibes so ehhhhh

id much rather deal with some bloating on the occasion i forget lactase instead of the consequence being cramps and bleeding for an unknown amount of time. if it even is the dairy? idk what else it could be unless its somehow a very coincidental reaction with my t or birth control. what a headache

avoiding dairy fully is so hard bc now im down to eating the same like. 3 things and its so fucking boring.
literally just: rice a roni, knorr chicken pasta, cereal w soy milk. w meals i can add some vegan chicken or sausage i guess? this sucks so much oml. hoping this can lead to a hysto??

i scheduled a doctor's appointment but the closest i could get is december 2nd ;; ig i try extra hard to not be stupid and just hope it doesn't keep getting worse?
im also sick with idk what and cant tell if my fatigue and lightheadedness are that or anemia,,,, bleh.

i feel like i blacked out i thought it was a month away like yesterday what the hell,,, time flies when youre queer or something

like i looked up stuff re: lactose intolerance and a school or smth said "you dont just wake up one morning unable to consume dairy" and its so funny because that is genuinely what happened to me. one day fine. next day agony.
sus also is the night itchies. and the sudden orange allergy

anti homeless music but make it classy

he looks so good! i wish beetlejuice spider was real, it'd be sick to see a buncha little guys like that roaming around

i've started putting my phone in Focus Mode which only allows access to one boring game, 0 social media outside of messaging, and the bare minimum apps i need and it has wildly improved my life until i decide to turn it off and then it's back to square one