Anyways, I love and envy so many of you for being so unapologetically -you- in both the virtual -and- irl. 💜 Ya'll are my heroes and I know one day I'll gain the ability to do the same. 🫂
If you actually read all this n' made it this far, thank you so much for listening. ❤️

I know my problems are a drop in the bucket comparatively as many of you have experienced much-much worse.. And everyday I try show gratitude to the universe for everything it's given' me so far..

I suppose the digital world and the music festivals I attend are where I'm able to just let it all out.. It's where the weight of these expectations aren't crushing, because of the group-growth mindset of the people and community I tend to gravitate towards..

I just wanna be the total freak I am.. I just wanna be gay n' bi n' express all my femme.. I wanna like the music I like.. I wanna paint all my nails pink..

and a world where people desperately cling to their addictions, false-pretenses, and empty-hopes while rejecting anything they don't understand, essentially chasing their fears. It's honestly disgusting.

Life is absolutely ridiculous in both the best and worst ways. I feel like I live in between several worlds: one where people express their deepest most beautiful selves without much fear,

Society isn't fair, and the industry I'm working in is very closed-minded, toxic, and tangibly punishing to self-expression and to being different..

And I know that ultimately it's still my choice, but the choice really feels like an illusion when it has to come with so many sacrifices just to maintain livelihood..

No false gods