I've read the first two paragraphs only, got too disgusted to continue... will try again later...

I specialize in overthinking

Some people use gay to mean man/man relationship, some people use gay to mean same gender relationship. Some people say love is caring for another, like you do with a sibling, some say love is a romantic relationship. Point being, if you think it's gay to love women it's gay.

I don't, and I know this probably isn't ideal, but your welcome to come to my place.