Payne H.
@brutestrangth.bsky.social
Quitting all meta socials. Find me here.
Left. Angry. Tired.
Left. Angry. Tired.
I /did/ lose all those games.
I /did/ want to keep playing just to win /one/ game.
And I wasn't short selling that I am absolutely the dumb one of the group.
We still hung out. But after watching the world's saddest lightbulb go off in her mind, I knew it was strictly platonic.
I /did/ want to keep playing just to win /one/ game.
And I wasn't short selling that I am absolutely the dumb one of the group.
We still hung out. But after watching the world's saddest lightbulb go off in her mind, I knew it was strictly platonic.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
I /did/ lose all those games.
I /did/ want to keep playing just to win /one/ game.
And I wasn't short selling that I am absolutely the dumb one of the group.
We still hung out. But after watching the world's saddest lightbulb go off in her mind, I knew it was strictly platonic.
I /did/ want to keep playing just to win /one/ game.
And I wasn't short selling that I am absolutely the dumb one of the group.
We still hung out. But after watching the world's saddest lightbulb go off in her mind, I knew it was strictly platonic.
I cannot stress how smart all my friends are.
So I, just by being near them and throwing out some humourous little quips, seem as smart as they are too.
This is just not true.
So I watched this, beautiful, smart, self possessed woman realize, that I was never lying.
So I, just by being near them and throwing out some humourous little quips, seem as smart as they are too.
This is just not true.
So I watched this, beautiful, smart, self possessed woman realize, that I was never lying.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
I cannot stress how smart all my friends are.
So I, just by being near them and throwing out some humourous little quips, seem as smart as they are too.
This is just not true.
So I watched this, beautiful, smart, self possessed woman realize, that I was never lying.
So I, just by being near them and throwing out some humourous little quips, seem as smart as they are too.
This is just not true.
So I watched this, beautiful, smart, self possessed woman realize, that I was never lying.
...if you've never seen someone's lightbulb go off, but it's sad. What a wild thing to behold.
I watched as this person went from attracted to me, very quickly, to confused by me.
Once again, we hadn't known each other long. She knew me in the group setting of my friends.
I watched as this person went from attracted to me, very quickly, to confused by me.
Once again, we hadn't known each other long. She knew me in the group setting of my friends.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
...if you've never seen someone's lightbulb go off, but it's sad. What a wild thing to behold.
I watched as this person went from attracted to me, very quickly, to confused by me.
Once again, we hadn't known each other long. She knew me in the group setting of my friends.
I watched as this person went from attracted to me, very quickly, to confused by me.
Once again, we hadn't known each other long. She knew me in the group setting of my friends.
My best laid plans of the alleged "Win" instantly turned into a loss.
See, we have to have to reference the keystone of my romantic relationship: they're smarter than me.
So, I watched as this "smarter than me" person started to ponder.
See, we have to have to reference the keystone of my romantic relationship: they're smarter than me.
So, I watched as this "smarter than me" person started to ponder.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
My best laid plans of the alleged "Win" instantly turned into a loss.
See, we have to have to reference the keystone of my romantic relationship: they're smarter than me.
So, I watched as this "smarter than me" person started to ponder.
See, we have to have to reference the keystone of my romantic relationship: they're smarter than me.
So, I watched as this "smarter than me" person started to ponder.
He very quickly states, nearly cutting her off, frankly, "Payne has never /let/ anyone win anything, ever".
While this is true, he then went on to explain that I am an uncle. And those little bastards were gonna have to win, to win.
This testimonial instantly backfired.
While this is true, he then went on to explain that I am an uncle. And those little bastards were gonna have to win, to win.
This testimonial instantly backfired.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
He very quickly states, nearly cutting her off, frankly, "Payne has never /let/ anyone win anything, ever".
While this is true, he then went on to explain that I am an uncle. And those little bastards were gonna have to win, to win.
This testimonial instantly backfired.
While this is true, he then went on to explain that I am an uncle. And those little bastards were gonna have to win, to win.
This testimonial instantly backfired.
So, I tell him about connect four, and how I was thoroughly defeated.
To which, she chimes in (playfully), "yeah and he let me win every time".
My friend from highschool took on such a shit eating grin... I've never seen anyone look so amused/bewildered at the same time.
To which, she chimes in (playfully), "yeah and he let me win every time".
My friend from highschool took on such a shit eating grin... I've never seen anyone look so amused/bewildered at the same time.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
So, I tell him about connect four, and how I was thoroughly defeated.
To which, she chimes in (playfully), "yeah and he let me win every time".
My friend from highschool took on such a shit eating grin... I've never seen anyone look so amused/bewildered at the same time.
To which, she chimes in (playfully), "yeah and he let me win every time".
My friend from highschool took on such a shit eating grin... I've never seen anyone look so amused/bewildered at the same time.
One of our mutual friends, has been a friend of mine since highschool.
So I think, "perfect, I'll get a testimonial on how I didn't let her win. That's outside of my character."
I see a win for me here. I can have someone else convince this person that I'm not an ass (in that way)
So I think, "perfect, I'll get a testimonial on how I didn't let her win. That's outside of my character."
I see a win for me here. I can have someone else convince this person that I'm not an ass (in that way)
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
One of our mutual friends, has been a friend of mine since highschool.
So I think, "perfect, I'll get a testimonial on how I didn't let her win. That's outside of my character."
I see a win for me here. I can have someone else convince this person that I'm not an ass (in that way)
So I think, "perfect, I'll get a testimonial on how I didn't let her win. That's outside of my character."
I see a win for me here. I can have someone else convince this person that I'm not an ass (in that way)
As we're out for drinks, I see a few people from our shared group of friends at the bar.
We naturally go over, they were all aware we were on a date, they didn't want to intrude (which is crazy we came over).
We obviously stay with them at the bar and fall into a more normal hangout pattern.
We naturally go over, they were all aware we were on a date, they didn't want to intrude (which is crazy we came over).
We obviously stay with them at the bar and fall into a more normal hangout pattern.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
As we're out for drinks, I see a few people from our shared group of friends at the bar.
We naturally go over, they were all aware we were on a date, they didn't want to intrude (which is crazy we came over).
We obviously stay with them at the bar and fall into a more normal hangout pattern.
We naturally go over, they were all aware we were on a date, they didn't want to intrude (which is crazy we came over).
We obviously stay with them at the bar and fall into a more normal hangout pattern.
...it's a difficult thing. To try and convince someone you're not infantilizing them, by letting them win.
But on the other side of the balancing beam, make yourself sound just, so damn shitbrained.
Anyway, she doesn't buy it, we have a great rest of the date, and we go out for drinks after.
But on the other side of the balancing beam, make yourself sound just, so damn shitbrained.
Anyway, she doesn't buy it, we have a great rest of the date, and we go out for drinks after.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
...it's a difficult thing. To try and convince someone you're not infantilizing them, by letting them win.
But on the other side of the balancing beam, make yourself sound just, so damn shitbrained.
Anyway, she doesn't buy it, we have a great rest of the date, and we go out for drinks after.
But on the other side of the balancing beam, make yourself sound just, so damn shitbrained.
Anyway, she doesn't buy it, we have a great rest of the date, and we go out for drinks after.
Now, you're thinking at this point, "she wanted to stop playing cause she felt bad, because no grown person should lose that many games in a row".
Wrong.
She wanted to quit because she thought I was letting her win.
Which might be the biggest insult I've ever received (it's not even close).
Wrong.
She wanted to quit because she thought I was letting her win.
Which might be the biggest insult I've ever received (it's not even close).
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Now, you're thinking at this point, "she wanted to stop playing cause she felt bad, because no grown person should lose that many games in a row".
Wrong.
She wanted to quit because she thought I was letting her win.
Which might be the biggest insult I've ever received (it's not even close).
Wrong.
She wanted to quit because she thought I was letting her win.
Which might be the biggest insult I've ever received (it's not even close).
Fact number 2 overtook fact number 1.
I lost every game.
At one point, she suggested that we could stop playing.
Of course she suggested that, because I had lost 6 games in a row. Some of them, frankly, embarrassingly.
Connect 4 is not a hard game, it requires very little strategy, frankly.
I lost every game.
At one point, she suggested that we could stop playing.
Of course she suggested that, because I had lost 6 games in a row. Some of them, frankly, embarrassingly.
Connect 4 is not a hard game, it requires very little strategy, frankly.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Fact number 2 overtook fact number 1.
I lost every game.
At one point, she suggested that we could stop playing.
Of course she suggested that, because I had lost 6 games in a row. Some of them, frankly, embarrassingly.
Connect 4 is not a hard game, it requires very little strategy, frankly.
I lost every game.
At one point, she suggested that we could stop playing.
Of course she suggested that, because I had lost 6 games in a row. Some of them, frankly, embarrassingly.
Connect 4 is not a hard game, it requires very little strategy, frankly.
Which brings us to important fact number 2.
I'm so competitive, sometimes it's better to just not compete against me.
I'm not a sore loser/winner. In fact quite the opposite.
But my will to win/not lose... Well it's all consuming and overbearing over many other facets of my personality.
I'm so competitive, sometimes it's better to just not compete against me.
I'm not a sore loser/winner. In fact quite the opposite.
But my will to win/not lose... Well it's all consuming and overbearing over many other facets of my personality.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Which brings us to important fact number 2.
I'm so competitive, sometimes it's better to just not compete against me.
I'm not a sore loser/winner. In fact quite the opposite.
But my will to win/not lose... Well it's all consuming and overbearing over many other facets of my personality.
I'm so competitive, sometimes it's better to just not compete against me.
I'm not a sore loser/winner. In fact quite the opposite.
But my will to win/not lose... Well it's all consuming and overbearing over many other facets of my personality.
Now if anyone if you know me irl, there is one indelible truth to my life, it is that I've never dated someone stupider than me.
While this was a first date, I was aware of this person before. She was a newer addition to a friend group of mine.
I knew she was smarter than me.
While this was a first date, I was aware of this person before. She was a newer addition to a friend group of mine.
I knew she was smarter than me.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Now if anyone if you know me irl, there is one indelible truth to my life, it is that I've never dated someone stupider than me.
While this was a first date, I was aware of this person before. She was a newer addition to a friend group of mine.
I knew she was smarter than me.
While this was a first date, I was aware of this person before. She was a newer addition to a friend group of mine.
I knew she was smarter than me.
At said table were some of the classic games you play, most of them terrible.
We're talking: monopoly, chutes and ladders, candy land.
Most important to the story, and also the best game available; connect four was also in attendance.
So I see connect four and say, "oh let's play that".
We're talking: monopoly, chutes and ladders, candy land.
Most important to the story, and also the best game available; connect four was also in attendance.
So I see connect four and say, "oh let's play that".
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
At said table were some of the classic games you play, most of them terrible.
We're talking: monopoly, chutes and ladders, candy land.
Most important to the story, and also the best game available; connect four was also in attendance.
So I see connect four and say, "oh let's play that".
We're talking: monopoly, chutes and ladders, candy land.
Most important to the story, and also the best game available; connect four was also in attendance.
So I see connect four and say, "oh let's play that".
So, I'm at the counter with her. I make the same exact suggestions to her, as I just did to y'all.
Adding a Palestinian coffee to the mix cause I was in my early 20s, and a coffee at 7pm wouldn't ruin my tract, or my sleep schedule.
We grab our things we go sit in a corner that contains a table.
Adding a Palestinian coffee to the mix cause I was in my early 20s, and a coffee at 7pm wouldn't ruin my tract, or my sleep schedule.
We grab our things we go sit in a corner that contains a table.
June 27, 2025 at 7:08 AM
So, I'm at the counter with her. I make the same exact suggestions to her, as I just did to y'all.
Adding a Palestinian coffee to the mix cause I was in my early 20s, and a coffee at 7pm wouldn't ruin my tract, or my sleep schedule.
We grab our things we go sit in a corner that contains a table.
Adding a Palestinian coffee to the mix cause I was in my early 20s, and a coffee at 7pm wouldn't ruin my tract, or my sleep schedule.
We grab our things we go sit in a corner that contains a table.
I'm glad I can do my part to supply the world with what it needs.
June 26, 2025 at 4:49 AM
I'm glad I can do my part to supply the world with what it needs.
I, at one point, put my phone in my pocket unlocked.
My ass and my phone communed together to call my ex from /highschool/.
This was 6 years ago. Never again.
My ass and my phone communed together to call my ex from /highschool/.
This was 6 years ago. Never again.
June 24, 2025 at 2:33 PM
I, at one point, put my phone in my pocket unlocked.
My ass and my phone communed together to call my ex from /highschool/.
This was 6 years ago. Never again.
My ass and my phone communed together to call my ex from /highschool/.
This was 6 years ago. Never again.
Absolutely. I'm the living embodiment of "don't make me point at the sign".
June 19, 2025 at 7:49 AM
Absolutely. I'm the living embodiment of "don't make me point at the sign".
Nono, you don't need to.
That's fine.
That's fine.
May 12, 2025 at 2:52 PM
Nono, you don't need to.
That's fine.
That's fine.
Vegan Bones gonna be the name of my vegan dive.
May 9, 2025 at 6:25 PM
Vegan Bones gonna be the name of my vegan dive.