Evianna (Evie) ✨
@blowpopsugarcube.bsky.social
LA transplant living in the Bay•36•Neurodivergent•LGBTQIA•Wiccan•Sports/music/cooking/retro tv•In recovery (SH, ED, addiction)🦋Sobriety date 8/23/23🦋I ramble a lot 😛
December 8, 2025 at 7:04 PM
And “But you seem okay to me” is supposed to mean what? Whenever someone says that, I just don’t say anything and shrug my shoulders. Then I walk away because I can feel tears coming. I seem okay because I’ve been masking my whole life
#audhd #actuallyautistic
#audhd #actuallyautistic
December 7, 2025 at 8:37 PM
And “But you seem okay to me” is supposed to mean what? Whenever someone says that, I just don’t say anything and shrug my shoulders. Then I walk away because I can feel tears coming. I seem okay because I’ve been masking my whole life
#audhd #actuallyautistic
#audhd #actuallyautistic
My autism presents in a way where I get told by other people that “Oh, I didn’t know that about you” and “But you seem okay/fine though”.
Of course you didn’t know, now you do because I told you. “I didn’t know that” is right up there with “But you’re seem so normal”
#audhd #actuallyautistic
Of course you didn’t know, now you do because I told you. “I didn’t know that” is right up there with “But you’re seem so normal”
#audhd #actuallyautistic
December 7, 2025 at 8:31 PM
My autism presents in a way where I get told by other people that “Oh, I didn’t know that about you” and “But you seem okay/fine though”.
Of course you didn’t know, now you do because I told you. “I didn’t know that” is right up there with “But you’re seem so normal”
#audhd #actuallyautistic
Of course you didn’t know, now you do because I told you. “I didn’t know that” is right up there with “But you’re seem so normal”
#audhd #actuallyautistic
I’m very cautious and guarded of the kind of people IRL to open up about being autistic these days. However, posting on social media about it and finding other neurodivergent people makes me feel less alone
#audhd #actuallyautistic
#audhd #actuallyautistic
December 7, 2025 at 8:23 PM
I’m very cautious and guarded of the kind of people IRL to open up about being autistic these days. However, posting on social media about it and finding other neurodivergent people makes me feel less alone
#audhd #actuallyautistic
#audhd #actuallyautistic
Took this a few days ago. Will never get tired of this view 😍
December 7, 2025 at 7:29 PM
Took this a few days ago. Will never get tired of this view 😍
Oh, and crying because I’m feeling really strong emotions and grieving many things. The holiday season is a stressful time and for a lot of people, a lonely time
#RecoveryPosse #BipolarSky
#RecoveryPosse #BipolarSky
December 7, 2025 at 6:04 AM
Oh, and crying because I’m feeling really strong emotions and grieving many things. The holiday season is a stressful time and for a lot of people, a lonely time
#RecoveryPosse #BipolarSky
#RecoveryPosse #BipolarSky
There were so many tears during a meeting I went to last week. So many people cried during their shares about things they wish they could take back, it was a gut punch. It made me think of all the times I had nothing but resentments on the mind.
#RecoveryPosse #ODAAT
#RecoveryPosse #ODAAT
December 7, 2025 at 5:54 AM
There were so many tears during a meeting I went to last week. So many people cried during their shares about things they wish they could take back, it was a gut punch. It made me think of all the times I had nothing but resentments on the mind.
#RecoveryPosse #ODAAT
#RecoveryPosse #ODAAT
And when I say that going on my walk challenged me, i meant emotionally and mentally. I started crying when I got home for so many reasons, which I’ll get to. I think it was a big mix of things
#BipolarSky #agoraphobia
#BipolarSky #agoraphobia
Hi Sky friends 🩷🩷 just touching base, feeling like shit tonight from pain, unpredictable moods, sadness, grief, and PTSD.
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
December 7, 2025 at 5:36 AM
And when I say that going on my walk challenged me, i meant emotionally and mentally. I started crying when I got home for so many reasons, which I’ll get to. I think it was a big mix of things
#BipolarSky #agoraphobia
#BipolarSky #agoraphobia
Hi Sky friends 🩷🩷 just touching base, feeling like shit tonight from pain, unpredictable moods, sadness, grief, and PTSD.
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
December 7, 2025 at 3:48 AM
Hi Sky friends 🩷🩷 just touching base, feeling like shit tonight from pain, unpredictable moods, sadness, grief, and PTSD.
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
Anyway. I went on an almost hour long walk this morning, I realized that only when I got home and looked at the time. That walk challenged me a lot.
#RecoveryPosse
Right now, I’m laying in bed watching Thursday Night Football under my heated blanket with my soft lights on. I saw my sober sister today and we had such a nice time hanging out. I went to my home group meeting this morning and heard some powerful shares. I shared too 😁 (which I don’t always do)
December 5, 2025 at 1:10 AM
Right now, I’m laying in bed watching Thursday Night Football under my heated blanket with my soft lights on. I saw my sober sister today and we had such a nice time hanging out. I went to my home group meeting this morning and heard some powerful shares. I shared too 😁 (which I don’t always do)
Hi my lovely Sky friends 💜✨ it’s been a day. I’m drained, emotional, and tapped out. I had my once a month case manager appointment and I cried so much. I really needed that, and I see my therapist tomorrow
December 5, 2025 at 1:08 AM
Hi my lovely Sky friends 💜✨ it’s been a day. I’m drained, emotional, and tapped out. I had my once a month case manager appointment and I cried so much. I really needed that, and I see my therapist tomorrow
Today has been rough. Tomorrow is a heavy anniversary. Still trying to ground myself. I pushed myself to go get my mail and go on a little stroll to breathe in fresh air, look at the beautiful trees with their colorful leaves, and move my body a bit. And get a lovely picture
December 4, 2025 at 1:10 AM
Today has been rough. Tomorrow is a heavy anniversary. Still trying to ground myself. I pushed myself to go get my mail and go on a little stroll to breathe in fresh air, look at the beautiful trees with their colorful leaves, and move my body a bit. And get a lovely picture
Thankful Im off of that shit 😮💨 anywho
☀️Gratitude list for tonight 🪷
* Stayed sober another day 🙏
* Chilly mornings
* My family
* Electric blankets
* Having a best friend that I can truly be myself around
#RecoveryPosse
☀️Gratitude list for tonight 🪷
* Stayed sober another day 🙏
* Chilly mornings
* My family
* Electric blankets
* Having a best friend that I can truly be myself around
#RecoveryPosse
December 2, 2025 at 7:12 AM
Thankful Im off of that shit 😮💨 anywho
☀️Gratitude list for tonight 🪷
* Stayed sober another day 🙏
* Chilly mornings
* My family
* Electric blankets
* Having a best friend that I can truly be myself around
#RecoveryPosse
☀️Gratitude list for tonight 🪷
* Stayed sober another day 🙏
* Chilly mornings
* My family
* Electric blankets
* Having a best friend that I can truly be myself around
#RecoveryPosse
im having trouble with my gait and having to hold on to things when I walk. Brings back memories of the 7 months of being on Depakote from late 2020 into early 2021. I had every single horrible side effect and I gained 40 lbs. I wasn’t even eating a lot back then
#NEISVoid #BipolarSky
#NEISVoid #BipolarSky
December 2, 2025 at 7:10 AM
im having trouble with my gait and having to hold on to things when I walk. Brings back memories of the 7 months of being on Depakote from late 2020 into early 2021. I had every single horrible side effect and I gained 40 lbs. I wasn’t even eating a lot back then
#NEISVoid #BipolarSky
#NEISVoid #BipolarSky
And staying connected with family, especially my mom. I could go on but I think I got my points across. Thanks for listening 🫶
#RecoveryPosse
#RecoveryPosse
It can be difficult for me to prioritize what I need to focus the most on. It’s a balancing act of keeping my sobriety, staying on top of refilling meds, seeing a therapist weekly, every 6 week psychiatrist appointments, trying to work on my weight loss
#RecoveryPosse
#RecoveryPosse
the usual suspects (my mental illness and health anxiety) were giving me a hard time, but thats my normal these days. I have the beginnings of a head cold. I’m doing my best to stay in gratitude and keep myself grounded and focused on the now
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
December 1, 2025 at 5:55 AM
And staying connected with family, especially my mom. I could go on but I think I got my points across. Thanks for listening 🫶
#RecoveryPosse
#RecoveryPosse
It can be difficult for me to prioritize what I need to focus the most on. It’s a balancing act of keeping my sobriety, staying on top of refilling meds, seeing a therapist weekly, every 6 week psychiatrist appointments, trying to work on my weight loss
#RecoveryPosse
#RecoveryPosse
the usual suspects (my mental illness and health anxiety) were giving me a hard time, but thats my normal these days. I have the beginnings of a head cold. I’m doing my best to stay in gratitude and keep myself grounded and focused on the now
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
December 1, 2025 at 5:52 AM
It can be difficult for me to prioritize what I need to focus the most on. It’s a balancing act of keeping my sobriety, staying on top of refilling meds, seeing a therapist weekly, every 6 week psychiatrist appointments, trying to work on my weight loss
#RecoveryPosse
#RecoveryPosse
the usual suspects (my mental illness and health anxiety) were giving me a hard time, but thats my normal these days. I have the beginnings of a head cold. I’m doing my best to stay in gratitude and keep myself grounded and focused on the now
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
December 1, 2025 at 5:43 AM
the usual suspects (my mental illness and health anxiety) were giving me a hard time, but thats my normal these days. I have the beginnings of a head cold. I’m doing my best to stay in gratitude and keep myself grounded and focused on the now
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
#BipolarSky #RecoveryPosse
Hi my lovely Sky friends 🪸🐚🪷
Today was a rest day for me. I knew I pushed myself too much yesterday when I got up this morning. I was dizzy and had trouble with my gait, there were points in the day I thought I was gonna fall 😩and I know it’s my vertigo
#NEISVoid
Today was a rest day for me. I knew I pushed myself too much yesterday when I got up this morning. I was dizzy and had trouble with my gait, there were points in the day I thought I was gonna fall 😩and I know it’s my vertigo
#NEISVoid
December 1, 2025 at 5:36 AM
Hi my lovely Sky friends 🪸🐚🪷
Today was a rest day for me. I knew I pushed myself too much yesterday when I got up this morning. I was dizzy and had trouble with my gait, there were points in the day I thought I was gonna fall 😩and I know it’s my vertigo
#NEISVoid
Today was a rest day for me. I knew I pushed myself too much yesterday when I got up this morning. I was dizzy and had trouble with my gait, there were points in the day I thought I was gonna fall 😩and I know it’s my vertigo
#NEISVoid
I went for my walk earlier in the week and took this. I love it when it’s foggy and misty outside
#NatureSky
#NatureSky
November 30, 2025 at 2:30 PM
I went for my walk earlier in the week and took this. I love it when it’s foggy and misty outside
#NatureSky
#NatureSky
Not the prettiest presentation, but the other night I cooked my first meal in months. A chicken tender and a Yukon gold baked potato ☺️ marinated the chicken and put it in the air fryer and the potato in the oven, baked it at 400° for an hour
#FoodSky
#FoodSky
November 30, 2025 at 2:25 PM
Not the prettiest presentation, but the other night I cooked my first meal in months. A chicken tender and a Yukon gold baked potato ☺️ marinated the chicken and put it in the air fryer and the potato in the oven, baked it at 400° for an hour
#FoodSky
#FoodSky