It might take me another year but I don’t mind as long as I make it happen. And I will.

And this feeling is so addicting. The feeling of achieving my wildest dreams, watching my clothes become looser and looser..my bones slowly start to surface more and more..I cant get enough of it. I’ve waited so long and I’m so close..just have to keep going a little more and I can get there..

My life has changed so drastically just by getting to 184 / bmi 27. I can easily imagine how much more it will change once I reach my actual goal. I’ll have even more confidence to do things I’ve always wanted to do but never could because of physical weight restrictions or mental limitations.

Of course I’m not at my goal yet. I still have a long way to go. But I know I’ll get there eventually. And I no longer have to hide myself in the meantime. I can dress how I want now without feeling super insecure. I don’t shy away from cameras. I no longer hide at home.

I forgot what it felt like to not be obese. To be able to walk for longer than 10 minutes without getting out of breath. To not struggle finding my size in stores or having clothes fit awkwardly. To just feel normal and comfortable and fine existing.

Clearly still very far from my goal but Im so relieved to not be that big anymore…i was stuck between 225-245 for most of my adult life, occasionally dipping to 195 during mia relapses but never going below, and a couple times surpassing 260.

Yall this wasn’t even my HW but when I tell you I was literally coping so hard by thinking I was just “a little chubby” and seeing myself as I am rn…it’s so fucking wilddddd

i know clothes run larger now than they did years ago so i cant be too happy... but progress is progress 💗

thank you love 💗 i made peace with my cookie omad 😅 luckily i burned alot of cals yesterday as well but today ill follow these tips so the last 10 cookies dont disappear as fast ahaha

Same I don’t keep much in the house but after a week without chocolate I caved 😣

I told myself I’ll just have three a day but that three turned into four then five then six then boom 10 🙃

I can never resist Nutella but the cookie version is on a whole other level 😭

I’m also super nervous about what they’ll say about my weight loss. My weight has always been a big topic for them and I just don’t want to hear anything. I know my mom will be ecstatic to find I’ve lost so much but I don’t want to hear it at all.

And then my alcoholic mother swears there will be no drinking the entire week they are here. Ironically she said it while drunk. She can’t go a single day without a beer. Pretty sure her body is dependent on it. So I doubt that will happen too