Everything has been a waiting game and needlessly to say, trying to find a job or random gig during these times has been confusing. Internet has always been my best distraction so at least I wanna have my chaos organized enough to be able to stay clear and at peace when needed.

I don't wanna bring more detail outside the main platform I use for following the news (facebook) but apparently 50 kilometers from country border isn't safe enough and there's family member hit by health problem which also affects our finance.

I'm still doing things how the mood strikes me each day so no promises (even towards myself) which.... may seemed disorganized, but as long as I'm emotionally stable and shits haven't falling apart yet, I will just take things at my pace.

I'm trying to not demand myself turning my own thoughts into "content" but more of "solid and re-visitable piece of creation" so it could be any kind of media cuz I enjoy solidification my thoughts and share it that way, I have a bunch of video skits.

(i havent even played the game regardless whether dlc dropped, got sucked by other simulation games)

"I am here. I will never know, for I am the unobservable in the observable. So long as I realize I do not know, I am here."

HDDが亡くなった時、2009年〜2013年までファイルがほぼ95%復活できなかったがちょっとだけあの頃の絵描きが残ってた。線画がスキャナーで仕上げはソフトでやったやつ。

悔しいだけどあの頃の記憶と感情はまだ覚えてる。だから今の自分はとんでもないバックアップ作って割りおるわ、ネット上やらUSBドライブでやら。

あの頃はまだ学生だったから悔しさだけしかなかったが今もうデカい子供になっちゃって仕事もやらなきゃいけないからもしまたHDD/SSDが壊れたら心が折ったほどだけじゃないよ。

そんなこと誰かに起きたら全力で応援したい。