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My body can’t manage being scared anymore. No matter how minor or temporary something is my entire being just feel this stinging, icy on the inside and on the outside it feels like I’m being twisted and contorted despite sitting perfectly still
April 15, 2025 at 8:55 AM
My body can’t manage being scared anymore. No matter how minor or temporary something is my entire being just feel this stinging, icy on the inside and on the outside it feels like I’m being twisted and contorted despite sitting perfectly still
I don’t know what to do anymore. Even when I try to fix my mistakes I end up causing more damage in my blind spots. The safest thing I can do is stay in place, away from others.
April 14, 2025 at 6:18 PM
I don’t know what to do anymore. Even when I try to fix my mistakes I end up causing more damage in my blind spots. The safest thing I can do is stay in place, away from others.
I can’t handle having ambitions, the hopes of ‘moving up in the world’ isn’t meant for someone like me
April 14, 2025 at 4:40 AM
I can’t handle having ambitions, the hopes of ‘moving up in the world’ isn’t meant for someone like me
I just want to be a person, but I don’t have the right to want anything anymore. The sooner I instill in myself that I am nothing, the less chances there are for me to cause more harm even on accident.
April 13, 2025 at 8:57 PM
I just want to be a person, but I don’t have the right to want anything anymore. The sooner I instill in myself that I am nothing, the less chances there are for me to cause more harm even on accident.
Whatever good that was left in me was killed by self-aggrandizement, and I’m realizing it now far too late
April 13, 2025 at 2:54 AM
Whatever good that was left in me was killed by self-aggrandizement, and I’m realizing it now far too late
Even my attempts to be better leave trails of broken glass behind me. Being a failure is one thing but I can’t even keep my own messes of glass from cutting others. I’m racking my brain for ways I can still in exist in other peoples’ lives without causing more hurt but I’m coming up empty. Nothing.
April 12, 2025 at 11:16 PM
Even my attempts to be better leave trails of broken glass behind me. Being a failure is one thing but I can’t even keep my own messes of glass from cutting others. I’m racking my brain for ways I can still in exist in other peoples’ lives without causing more hurt but I’m coming up empty. Nothing.
I don’t deserve to be cared about, even without intention I end up taking more than I deserve. I’ve become hideous inside and I don’t have the right to like myself.
April 12, 2025 at 2:15 PM
I don’t deserve to be cared about, even without intention I end up taking more than I deserve. I’ve become hideous inside and I don’t have the right to like myself.
I almost want to reach for my comfort bands and comet albums and comfort songs, but I don’t deserve comfort. I can never forget that.
April 12, 2025 at 4:08 AM
I almost want to reach for my comfort bands and comet albums and comfort songs, but I don’t deserve comfort. I can never forget that.
I want to rot away quietly and not feel anything. I keep breaking everything I touch and at this rate I just want it to be my turn
April 12, 2025 at 3:49 AM
I want to rot away quietly and not feel anything. I keep breaking everything I touch and at this rate I just want it to be my turn
I’ve forgotten how to be a good person, I’ve known it for a while now. I don’t deserve beautiful things, I end up destroying them even if I think I’m being gentle. I can’t drink self-reassurance without poisoning myself. I can’t be good to myself without hurting others and I can’t live with that.
April 12, 2025 at 1:43 AM
I’ve forgotten how to be a good person, I’ve known it for a while now. I don’t deserve beautiful things, I end up destroying them even if I think I’m being gentle. I can’t drink self-reassurance without poisoning myself. I can’t be good to myself without hurting others and I can’t live with that.
I miss being a part of something. My loneliness is my own fault. I’ve lost my ability to cry out for help, but I don’t have the right to feel heartbroken over it because it’s a fitting punishment.
Maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow feelings better, but I can’t help but feel like I deserve how alone I feel
Maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow feelings better, but I can’t help but feel like I deserve how alone I feel
April 1, 2025 at 4:28 AM
I miss being a part of something. My loneliness is my own fault. I’ve lost my ability to cry out for help, but I don’t have the right to feel heartbroken over it because it’s a fitting punishment.
Maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow feelings better, but I can’t help but feel like I deserve how alone I feel
Maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow feelings better, but I can’t help but feel like I deserve how alone I feel
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AND THERES MORE TO COME <3 <3 <3
The female vocals + choirs are yours truly. This is the first time I’ve ever been a part of something original and I couldn’t be happier that I get to do it with one of my best friends
I have a treat for you all--I hope this song gives you some inspiration/morale boost today--the first single off my upcoming solo album 'Sojourner' -- a symphonic/gothic power metal song about 'Disco Elysium'
Stay the course
You will make it someday
More details soon
youtu.be/o7Mw7eF5ggU
Stay the course
You will make it someday
More details soon
youtu.be/o7Mw7eF5ggU
March 20, 2025 at 2:39 AM
AND THERES MORE TO COME <3 <3 <3
The female vocals + choirs are yours truly. This is the first time I’ve ever been a part of something original and I couldn’t be happier that I get to do it with one of my best friends
I have a treat for you all--I hope this song gives you some inspiration/morale boost today--the first single off my upcoming solo album 'Sojourner' -- a symphonic/gothic power metal song about 'Disco Elysium'
Stay the course
You will make it someday
More details soon
youtu.be/o7Mw7eF5ggU
Stay the course
You will make it someday
More details soon
youtu.be/o7Mw7eF5ggU
Alicia Cordisco - Something Beautiful
YouTube video by Alicia Cordisco
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March 20, 2025 at 2:19 AM
The female vocals + choirs are yours truly. This is the first time I’ve ever been a part of something original and I couldn’t be happier that I get to do it with one of my best friends
Before I pick up the books, I have to repair the shelves
March 3, 2025 at 4:26 AM
Before I pick up the books, I have to repair the shelves
Feel like I’m just a husk of anxiety
February 11, 2025 at 11:41 PM
Feel like I’m just a husk of anxiety
I want to be better. I’m trying to pour what little energy I can muster to the into things I know are healthy for me. Instead I keep going back to what brings only small bursts of happiness, hoping that I can stretch out the quick fix long enough to make any amount of meaningful progress.
February 11, 2025 at 8:17 AM
I want to be better. I’m trying to pour what little energy I can muster to the into things I know are healthy for me. Instead I keep going back to what brings only small bursts of happiness, hoping that I can stretch out the quick fix long enough to make any amount of meaningful progress.
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Ok time to start getting acclimated to this app
*clears throat*
I WILL BE AT MAGFEST THIS WEEKEND TAKING CARE OF MERCH FOR THE ONE AND ONLY POWERGLOVE SO COME SAY HI*
*buy a lot of stuff
*clears throat*
I WILL BE AT MAGFEST THIS WEEKEND TAKING CARE OF MERCH FOR THE ONE AND ONLY POWERGLOVE SO COME SAY HI*
*buy a lot of stuff
January 21, 2025 at 9:37 PM
Ok time to start getting acclimated to this app
*clears throat*
I WILL BE AT MAGFEST THIS WEEKEND TAKING CARE OF MERCH FOR THE ONE AND ONLY POWERGLOVE SO COME SAY HI*
*buy a lot of stuff
*clears throat*
I WILL BE AT MAGFEST THIS WEEKEND TAKING CARE OF MERCH FOR THE ONE AND ONLY POWERGLOVE SO COME SAY HI*
*buy a lot of stuff