i hate having no close friends around here. i hate not having any friends to go to the movies with me and down to just hang out at any time. i hate how no one even wants to go to the movies with me because no one wants to experience things in theatre.

i feel like i’m never going to amount to anything. and i’m so tired of seeing people live the lives i could never have. and i’m tired of experiencing life through social media. it’s so exhausting and it is hurting my heart.

i’m so tired of being stuck where i am just depressed and stagnant and seeing other people get to live my dreams.

i’m tired of missing everyone who doesn’t miss me!!!

it just really sucks when the person you consider the closest and the one you have been wanting to talk to the most is just never around. because no one ever is ever around. and i just feel more and more alone. i’m so tired of hoping someone will be here and none of them ever are.