Childhood Sexual Abuse and Adult Sexual Assault Survivor #CSA
@asyouwerecsa.bsky.social
50+ year old woman raped and abused by a family member as a child. Sexually assaulted as an adult in the entertainment industry. Trying to understand why those that now know, do nothing, worse still, stand by the perpetrators #CSA
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I am going to share my experiences of childhood sexual abuse & adult sexual assault here. I will remain anonymous, for now, in order to tell my story without barriers - of which there are many. I have chosen the gold logo as both a warm, protective umbrella & hot air balloon to rise & be free.
Does it ever end BBC News - Women abused as children by Rotherham gangs say police also sexually assaulted them
www.bbc.com/news/article...
www.bbc.com/news/article...
Police officers ‘also abused’ Rotherham grooming gang victims
One says she was raped from the age of 12 by a South Yorkshire Police officer in a marked police car.
www.bbc.com
July 29, 2025 at 11:05 PM
Does it ever end BBC News - Women abused as children by Rotherham gangs say police also sexually assaulted them
www.bbc.com/news/article...
www.bbc.com/news/article...
Just rung mums house. 'He' answered. I hung up. Mum called back 2 mins later.
Lovely chat until I tried to reorganise our week together.
Said I didn't want to speak whilst he was there. I heard him doing a mocking laugh.
So whilst he could hear, I said "I hope he knows what's coming" #csa
Lovely chat until I tried to reorganise our week together.
Said I didn't want to speak whilst he was there. I heard him doing a mocking laugh.
So whilst he could hear, I said "I hope he knows what's coming" #csa
July 16, 2025 at 4:54 PM
Just rung mums house. 'He' answered. I hung up. Mum called back 2 mins later.
Lovely chat until I tried to reorganise our week together.
Said I didn't want to speak whilst he was there. I heard him doing a mocking laugh.
So whilst he could hear, I said "I hope he knows what's coming" #csa
Lovely chat until I tried to reorganise our week together.
Said I didn't want to speak whilst he was there. I heard him doing a mocking laugh.
So whilst he could hear, I said "I hope he knows what's coming" #csa
I am starting trauma counselling next week. After 2 assessment sessions, it's been sorted, very quickly, as they believe my need is urgent.
I had a breakdown 2 weeks ago because of my family. It seems they are triggering my trauma.
What a complex & ongoing situation to be living with #CSA
I had a breakdown 2 weeks ago because of my family. It seems they are triggering my trauma.
What a complex & ongoing situation to be living with #CSA
July 13, 2025 at 8:13 PM
I am starting trauma counselling next week. After 2 assessment sessions, it's been sorted, very quickly, as they believe my need is urgent.
I had a breakdown 2 weeks ago because of my family. It seems they are triggering my trauma.
What a complex & ongoing situation to be living with #CSA
I had a breakdown 2 weeks ago because of my family. It seems they are triggering my trauma.
What a complex & ongoing situation to be living with #CSA
Lost what little I had left of my family today.
Everyone is 'exhausted' with my rape and a use. And yet none of them have even offered to do counselling. I keep hearing 'I don't want tobget involved. Well, you are involved, this affects is all.
Everyone is 'exhausted' with my rape and a use. And yet none of them have even offered to do counselling. I keep hearing 'I don't want tobget involved. Well, you are involved, this affects is all.
July 1, 2025 at 10:03 PM
Lost what little I had left of my family today.
Everyone is 'exhausted' with my rape and a use. And yet none of them have even offered to do counselling. I keep hearing 'I don't want tobget involved. Well, you are involved, this affects is all.
Everyone is 'exhausted' with my rape and a use. And yet none of them have even offered to do counselling. I keep hearing 'I don't want tobget involved. Well, you are involved, this affects is all.
What I want to do, more than anything right now, is stand on top of a hill & shout as loud as I fucking can, "I'm here, I was raped as a child, I was sexually abused as a child & adult & everyone is carrying on like it didn't happen. I WANT TO BE SEEN & HEARD" & then scream my fucking lungs out #csa
June 29, 2025 at 7:28 PM
What I want to do, more than anything right now, is stand on top of a hill & shout as loud as I fucking can, "I'm here, I was raped as a child, I was sexually abused as a child & adult & everyone is carrying on like it didn't happen. I WANT TO BE SEEN & HEARD" & then scream my fucking lungs out #csa
I was 48 when I had my breakdown. 50 when I told my sister. 54 when I told my mum and other sister. So this makes me typical of #victims #survivors.
Although I don't think there should be anything typical about us. Yes to removing the #statuteoflimitaton for #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #CSA CSAM
Although I don't think there should be anything typical about us. Yes to removing the #statuteoflimitaton for #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #CSA CSAM
A horrific truth: the average age at which a victim of child abuse discloses what happened to them is 52 years old.
And 1 in 3 never tells anyone.
Silence is not a choice; it’s a sign of trauma. We must build a system that protects children and holds abusers accountable.
#CSAM
And 1 in 3 never tells anyone.
Silence is not a choice; it’s a sign of trauma. We must build a system that protects children and holds abusers accountable.
#CSAM
June 18, 2025 at 8:14 AM
I was 48 when I had my breakdown. 50 when I told my sister. 54 when I told my mum and other sister. So this makes me typical of #victims #survivors.
Although I don't think there should be anything typical about us. Yes to removing the #statuteoflimitaton for #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #CSA CSAM
Although I don't think there should be anything typical about us. Yes to removing the #statuteoflimitaton for #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #CSA CSAM
Here we go again. The #Pelicot trial got HUGE global coverage. A #paedophile raping hundreds of children in France for over 15 years barely gets any domestic coverage.
"It's frightening to think [the rapes] could happen again,"
They are. Now. Always.
They never stop
www.bbc.com/news/article...
"It's frightening to think [the rapes] could happen again,"
They are. Now. Always.
They never stop
www.bbc.com/news/article...
Victims in French Le Scouarnec child abuse trial shocked at public indifference
The trial of France's most prolific known paedophile comes to an end this week amid widespread frustration.
www.bbc.com
May 25, 2025 at 6:36 AM
Here we go again. The #Pelicot trial got HUGE global coverage. A #paedophile raping hundreds of children in France for over 15 years barely gets any domestic coverage.
"It's frightening to think [the rapes] could happen again,"
They are. Now. Always.
They never stop
www.bbc.com/news/article...
"It's frightening to think [the rapes] could happen again,"
They are. Now. Always.
They never stop
www.bbc.com/news/article...
For the first time in my life & since I told my mum about my familial rape & abuse, I feel our relationship has changed. She isn't supporting me although she doesn't see it. She welcomes him & enjoys his company. Not upsetting or alienating him seems more important than me feeling marginalised.
time.in
May 4, 2025 at 5:33 PM
For the first time in my life & since I told my mum about my familial rape & abuse, I feel our relationship has changed. She isn't supporting me although she doesn't see it. She welcomes him & enjoys his company. Not upsetting or alienating him seems more important than me feeling marginalised.
Reposted by Childhood Sexual Abuse and Adult Sexual Assault Survivor #CSA
Utterly heartbreaking. What a courageous woman taking a stand against the most powerful people in the world.
The toll, as we as survivors know all too well, is unimaginable.
So sad for the family she leaves behind.
We must continue her fight to call perpetrators out #VirginiaGiuffre #CSA
The toll, as we as survivors know all too well, is unimaginable.
So sad for the family she leaves behind.
We must continue her fight to call perpetrators out #VirginiaGiuffre #CSA
Virginia Giuffre, one of Jeffrey Epstein and Prince Andrew's most prominent rape survivors, dies by suicide.
Other victims credit Giuffre with giving them the courage to speak out. She also provided critical information that contributed to the investigation into the Epstein network. #OpDeathEaters
Other victims credit Giuffre with giving them the courage to speak out. She also provided critical information that contributed to the investigation into the Epstein network. #OpDeathEaters
Virginia Giuffre, one of Jeffrey Epstein's most prominent abuse survivors, dies by suicide
Other Epstein victims credited Giuffre with giving them the courage to speak out.
www.nbcnews.com
April 26, 2025 at 5:47 AM
Utterly heartbreaking. What a courageous woman taking a stand against the most powerful people in the world.
The toll, as we as survivors know all too well, is unimaginable.
So sad for the family she leaves behind.
We must continue her fight to call perpetrators out #VirginiaGiuffre #CSA
The toll, as we as survivors know all too well, is unimaginable.
So sad for the family she leaves behind.
We must continue her fight to call perpetrators out #VirginiaGiuffre #CSA
My family is currently falling apart & AB, my rapist, is still trying to manipulate our 88 year old mum. I can't bear it. I can't be there to help her because she still engages with him as if nothing has happened. And it's breaking my heart & JH, my sister who has tried to mediate. Just awful #csa
April 24, 2025 at 7:23 PM
My family is currently falling apart & AB, my rapist, is still trying to manipulate our 88 year old mum. I can't bear it. I can't be there to help her because she still engages with him as if nothing has happened. And it's breaking my heart & JH, my sister who has tried to mediate. Just awful #csa
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February 24, 2025 at 9:11 AM
Our 37 member Rape Crisis centres deliver a range of specialist services to those affected by sexual violence and abuse in England and Wales, including counselling, advocacy support and helplines.
Read more about these services and find your local Rape Crisis centre: bit.ly/3CTPKWy
Read more about these services and find your local Rape Crisis centre: bit.ly/3CTPKWy
Being a Survivor of sexual violence is unimaginably isolating. And that means being isolated from "friends" and family who don't know how to handle it. So don't handle it. And you're left on you own. Everyone wants things to go back to being as they were. And you to go back to being AS YOU WERE #CSA
February 19, 2025 at 2:48 PM
Being a Survivor of sexual violence is unimaginably isolating. And that means being isolated from "friends" and family who don't know how to handle it. So don't handle it. And you're left on you own. Everyone wants things to go back to being as they were. And you to go back to being AS YOU WERE #CSA
My sister, SB, is willingly and happily spending time with AB, the family member that she knows raped and sexually abused me, tonight.
She'd rather do that than support me - unimaginable and beyond hurtful for me. It's actions like this that drive me closer to exposing the whole truth publicly #CSA
She'd rather do that than support me - unimaginable and beyond hurtful for me. It's actions like this that drive me closer to exposing the whole truth publicly #CSA
February 13, 2025 at 8:59 PM
My sister, SB, is willingly and happily spending time with AB, the family member that she knows raped and sexually abused me, tonight.
She'd rather do that than support me - unimaginable and beyond hurtful for me. It's actions like this that drive me closer to exposing the whole truth publicly #CSA
She'd rather do that than support me - unimaginable and beyond hurtful for me. It's actions like this that drive me closer to exposing the whole truth publicly #CSA
Trying to think when I last saw top news headlines that didn't include at least one story of violence, sexual and non-sexual, against women and girl.
www.theguardian.com/society/2025...
www.theguardian.com/society/2025...
‘Epidemic’ of violence against women and girls in UK is getting worse – report
National Audit Office says government attempts to tackle misogynistic violence are hampered by poor coordination
www.theguardian.com
January 31, 2025 at 9:16 AM
Trying to think when I last saw top news headlines that didn't include at least one story of violence, sexual and non-sexual, against women and girl.
www.theguardian.com/society/2025...
www.theguardian.com/society/2025...
I've been quiet because work is intense at the moment.
But my timeline and work life is filled with misogynistic men, who not only get away with their awful behaviour but worse, are being rewarded for it.
And we are either silent or attacked for speaking up.
I'm absolutely exhausted #csa
But my timeline and work life is filled with misogynistic men, who not only get away with their awful behaviour but worse, are being rewarded for it.
And we are either silent or attacked for speaking up.
I'm absolutely exhausted #csa
January 26, 2025 at 7:45 PM
I've been quiet because work is intense at the moment.
But my timeline and work life is filled with misogynistic men, who not only get away with their awful behaviour but worse, are being rewarded for it.
And we are either silent or attacked for speaking up.
I'm absolutely exhausted #csa
But my timeline and work life is filled with misogynistic men, who not only get away with their awful behaviour but worse, are being rewarded for it.
And we are either silent or attacked for speaking up.
I'm absolutely exhausted #csa
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Is the reason why the Conservatives didn't apply the 20 recommendations from the Alexis Jay inquiry report
Because as the FT write, compensation would have reached £10 billion
And the Conservatives didn't want to pay for it?
Because as the FT write, compensation would have reached £10 billion
And the Conservatives didn't want to pay for it?
January 8, 2025 at 10:25 PM
Is the reason why the Conservatives didn't apply the 20 recommendations from the Alexis Jay inquiry report
Because as the FT write, compensation would have reached £10 billion
And the Conservatives didn't want to pay for it?
Because as the FT write, compensation would have reached £10 billion
And the Conservatives didn't want to pay for it?
Why are you more angry at my reaction to being raped and sexually abused by my brother, than to the rapist and sexual abuse itself? #CSA #Rape #SexualAbuse
January 7, 2025 at 8:14 PM
Why are you more angry at my reaction to being raped and sexually abused by my brother, than to the rapist and sexual abuse itself? #CSA #Rape #SexualAbuse
I was sexually assaulted by someone in the music industry - not a surprise. But what's written here about Rape being about control and power is so true. The man that sexually assaulted me is gay and still working in radio. What's worse, our (old) mutual friends stand by him. #Rape #SexualAssault
December 28, 2024 at 6:58 PM
I was sexually assaulted by someone in the music industry - not a surprise. But what's written here about Rape being about control and power is so true. The man that sexually assaulted me is gay and still working in radio. What's worse, our (old) mutual friends stand by him. #Rape #SexualAssault
After a lovely Christmas day with my sister J & her family, I brought my mum home to mine for a couple of nights.
She's due to go to A's (my familial abuser) & his family today but had an upset stomach and is exhausted. Determined I'm keeping her from him, he threatened to drive here & collect her..
She's due to go to A's (my familial abuser) & his family today but had an upset stomach and is exhausted. Determined I'm keeping her from him, he threatened to drive here & collect her..
Christ.as
December 28, 2024 at 1:50 PM
After a lovely Christmas day with my sister J & her family, I brought my mum home to mine for a couple of nights.
She's due to go to A's (my familial abuser) & his family today but had an upset stomach and is exhausted. Determined I'm keeping her from him, he threatened to drive here & collect her..
She's due to go to A's (my familial abuser) & his family today but had an upset stomach and is exhausted. Determined I'm keeping her from him, he threatened to drive here & collect her..
My Christmas is already bringing hostility from a sister, also abused by A (wont ever call him my brother again), is angry at me for asking her son to pass on a message about cancelling our mums newspaper whilst she's away. I no longer speak with her (another story). Here's my message to him...
December 22, 2024 at 1:58 PM
My Christmas is already bringing hostility from a sister, also abused by A (wont ever call him my brother again), is angry at me for asking her son to pass on a message about cancelling our mums newspaper whilst she's away. I no longer speak with her (another story). Here's my message to him...
Beyond brave
December 20, 2024 at 9:08 PM
Beyond brave
Huge respect & admiration for #GiselePelicot. Such immense courage. I feel inspired to speak out about my own abuse. But, like many others, there is no firm evidence or proof. Which makes it hard to pursue & get this kind of justice. The trauma of going public & facing more abuse is v real. #Pelicot
#GiselePelicot - you have turned the tables for rape survivors. Thank you.
I hope you can take some time now to step back, and rest, with those who love you, care for you, and give you the respect you always deserved.
#Pelicot
www.theguardian.com/commentisfre...
I hope you can take some time now to step back, and rest, with those who love you, care for you, and give you the respect you always deserved.
#Pelicot
www.theguardian.com/commentisfre...
Gisèle Pelicot has allowed us all to shout out loud: she did it, and we can do it. Gisèle Pelicot is us | Judith Godrèche
The denial of Gisèle’s humanity by her rapists is the denial of violence done to every woman. At her side, we can now look the world in the eye, says actor Judith Godrèche
www.theguardian.com
December 20, 2024 at 1:39 PM
Huge respect & admiration for #GiselePelicot. Such immense courage. I feel inspired to speak out about my own abuse. But, like many others, there is no firm evidence or proof. Which makes it hard to pursue & get this kind of justice. The trauma of going public & facing more abuse is v real. #Pelicot