Happy birthday! 🎉🎉

🌼GROUNDSKEEPER'S NOTE:
"There is nothing waiting for you in the past. So move forward, and have faith: in others, in the 'warmth of letting go', and in yourself. Have a brave day. ☄️"

- altie

☄️vocalists:
@rinhime.bsky.social as Mem / Cyrene
@roelraizel.bsky.social as Caelus
KISAKI as Stelle

🎶music & arrange: altair of #ASTRALMILE, KISAKI, rin姫
🎶lyrics: altair of ASTRAL MILE
📀mix & vocal edit: altair of ASTRAL MILE, rin姫
🎥MV direction @awesometrains.bsky.social , @chupuko.bsky.social

I also hope that this helps put AuDHD, etc. into perspective: that our neurobiological structures are not definitive of personality. Many things can affect how we interact with the world.

We are more than our impulses and functions. How we decide to continue defines who we are.

have a brave day ☄️

Moving forward, I want to break down the control room door. Instead of waiting to be called out, I'd rather be the one to go back and say, "Hey, what I'd said wasn't cool, and I'm sorry. Please disregard it, and I'll get back to you once I've calmed down." (+)

I'm hesitant on talking about this publicly, but I'm getting so tired of having to go through this loop during collabs & chats that I'd rather put it all SOMEWHERE public so that it's ALWAYS being held accountable.

Thank you to those who have called it out so far.🙏 And, I'm so sorry. (+)

The nice thing post-ego death is my ability to NOTICE sooner. (Used to give into it)

It ways goes like this:
throws tantrum over not getting what it wants > says irrational and selfish things > gets called out and wants to d*e > I take back control and apologize for its behaviour and panic 😑 (+)

I'd thought reawakening would make me appreciate my body more... But, I think it's making me resent it, instead.
Spasming and freezing over a conversation, melting down from smth IT never communicated, running from responsibility, etc..

The days-long, inner arguments are exhausting... (+)

The part that wrecks me the most is that I HAVE to take responsibility for its actions as my own: because this existence is based on MY active choices. The one LIVING it is me.

To keep myself sane, I could say "I'm sorry for having lost control", but is that still fair to say, for myself? (+)

As of two years ago, I've deliberately stopped direct discussion of politics. Instead, I focus on empowering my community to push back by continuing to exist.

Why? Because "show, don't tell".
Why waste my breath screaming into a rigged void when I can empower my community to SHOW the truth of love?