Oh! Here's my Valentine's Day fit! Pretty cute, no? I've been saving this top for the occasion.

I was getting read the way I try to be read.

* Something I can’t really share abt here but life is strange and sometimes I wish I cd tell 12yo me how things are turning out, she’d never believe me it’s so surprising, fitting, and good, like a beautiful story someone else wrote.

longer & longer, it started when I had to grow my stache out for electro but now they’re out of control, someone is going to have to do something about it.

* I went to 9yo’s bball game the morning after electro and I was more or less au naturel but someone said g’mornin’ in a way that told me

I think practically *all* the dark hairs are gone. The ones that remain are red & soft. My skin is so smooth. Fuck those little hairs, I hope they burn in hell.

* Coworkers complimented how my outfit, earrings, kerchief, and nails matched the other day.

* The wings on my eyeliner are getting

I feel so scared, sad, and alone right now. I’m crying, actually. Here’s my joy, though:

* The other night at DQ the workers called me ma’am before and *after* I ordered. My voice, it’s getting better every day.

* An HEB employees called me ma’am today.

* I had electrolysis on my upper lip and 👇🏼

After I came out to myself as trans, my interior life changed so dramatically, practically overnight, that I wrote in my diary that, in my heart, I’d gone from Dennis Hopper to Laura Dern, and that the robins had come. ❤️

My phone ☺️

Downside to being trans: Everybody hates you and wants you to die.

Upside to being trans: You can sit literally anywhere and just vibe on the way you look, all day and forever. ✨

A year ago today (left) vs now (right). One of those who wore it better things. I guess I find a look I like and I stick with it. 🤷🏻‍♀️

New dress just dropped. Not my usual style, but you have to try stuff.

Today’s gender euphoria: sometimes my 9yo daughter gives me a hug & when she does she wraps her arms all the way around my waist (the narrowest part of bod 2.0) & squeezes tight, & it makes me feel so momcore.

Today's look is one I've been rocking since the days of grunge (more or less) but I think I've finally perfected it.

Went to Goodwill yesterday. As usual, an exhilarating & draining experience. 🤩😮‍💨 Partly bc of lighting, gawd, which here nicely contours my pooch. Tho I think the dress actually ties in front which helps. The trans agenda needs to include good lighting everywhere. ✊🏼🏳️‍⚧️ (I got the dress tho.)

Friday night, drinking a Bloody Mary, making pad Thai for my babies. 🤤

Hello, it's me, a 45yo woman.

Vs. me from exactly two years ago.

"You have to go the way your blood beats. If you don't live the only life you have, you won't live some other life. You won't live any life at all." [James Baldwin]

Transition did more than save my life. It *gave* me a life.