My relationship with her can't last
It isn't her fault, but I have been growing increasingly distant after learning what I did
I both want to keep it going until I need to end the relationship, but also want to break up now so it stops weighing on my mind

How about you treat all of your partners equaly for once instead of just glazing 2 and leaving the rest to rot? Some of your partners give you all of their love, just to try and get even a BIT of attention, yet you ignore them like they never even fucking existed to begin with.

getting back with THEM of all people, just to treat them the same way the one whom you are going back in forth with is treating you ? kinda scares me ngl

please dont play favorites

he doesn't treat me the same way he does those two and i dont think he notices just how much it hurts me inside
either that or i just dont interact with him enough
the problem is im running from the issue
overall idk if i'm made for the polyam life

I'm still quite unstable, but have to hide it for the sake of my relationships. Every second of my life I'm worried about it, and I fear them all leaving me. I'm going trough so much, but am affraid to even say it publicly. Envy, anxiety, stress, love, hate, worry, sadness, everything.

it kinda scares me the way he switched up so fast after realizing our fears were the truth

I wish they'd actually treat me like a romantic partner instead of just someone who is there. They're the longest partner in the polycule I've had, and suddenly they just have zero to little energy talking to me(thats if they even talk to me). And I occasionally see them with way more energy,

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