finally turned in my application to amend my birth certificate (name + gender change)
fingers crossed it all goes through 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

🍀 hopefully have some extra luck for doing it on St Pats day 🌈

I got my letter from my surgeon so now I am in the process of trying to get my birth certificate changed 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ trying to get this done asap

trying to go back to the gym today idk why it's so hard to get back into routine

like I like doing this, why am I resisting lol

at this point I love living alone and just being a lone wolf so much, idk how I'm ever gonna date again.
but then there's like 2-5% of me that's like where's my gf

kinda battling the post op drop and it doesn't help I've been pretty isolated and chronically online the last few weeks

I need to touch literal grass

good news!
my surgeon has agreed to write me a letter so I can change my gender on my birth certificate 🏳️‍⚧️

after that, all my gov identity paperwork will match,

so there shouldn't be any reason I can't get a passport (hopefully) since this would be my first.

gonna name my punk band phantom tit itch

my therapist literally prescribed me to get a tat / piercing before my next session

is this the queer version of getting 5150'd

I'm trying to stay positive.

we exist. we aren't going anywhere.

we've been here in every timeline and every timeline after us.

they can't take our truth.
or our joy.

stay joyful.
stay present.

all I can do is try to support my community and be present and visible in a time that feels scary and unsafe to do so.

all I can do is stay.
try to be there for my peers and the gens after me.

I'm mostly worried about them.

they took the T off of the official white house page regarding lgbt travelers.

they're banning us from getting passports. my documents don't match.

my bones are screaming at me to leave.

they are making it illegal for me to make them match/leave.

I live in a red state.
shit is not looking good.

I hate to join the fear mongering, that's not my intent at all.
but.

I don't recognize this country and nothing is safe anymore.

my country wants me erased.
they want to get rid of me & my friends.
for commiting the sin of being authentic & happy.

where do I go?
I can't leave.

I'm so tired and I just got here. I just want to continue my life being happy for once.

and they keep saying I don't exist and are doing their best to make it true.

just did my first injection all by myself like a big boi and it wasn't even a big deal 💪🏻

still can't believe I had to pay 7.5 k to rid myself of just over a half lb to save my life .

like what the fuck you are telling me .6 lbs was enough to make me sewer cidal

the good news is I'm off the pain meds and antibx for the last week or so. & they took my drains out today.
but I'm still 2 wks away from taking off the damn post op vest / dressings and I still can't lift anything over 10 lbs or push/pull anything so most workouts are off limits.

2 weeks post op and feeling the slump y'all. so happy but also kind of down and isolated. feeling pretty blobby and inactive and I feel like a big open wound rn. I'm sure I'll feel better in a few wks but right now I'm kinda going thru it. I just want to go back to my active lifestyle and the gym

first post here. hoping to find my community and hide from the musky zuck cuck fucks