i dont want to see another one of you fucks again

even after everything i have to thank you for letting me see how much of a pushover and a deadbeat you people can be

how much you dont care for my safety

how much you played with that safety

please

never and i mean never face me.

and for you who tried to sweet talk me everyday and lovebomb me to get closer to me so you could make your advances

i hate you
i hated you

was my further solitude worth it for you

were you satisfied with it

i never felt safe

always somebody out to exploit me to a bloody beaten corpse

youd dismiss everything id say when id go to you
always with the same half assed "oh i hope your ok" and "im sorry that you went through that" do you have nothing else to say to me

fucking face me i want you to look me dead in the eyes as you abandoned me and prove me right like i always have

oh and its not just that but i know you would look down on me

i was nothing but just some dumb kid trying to be edgy is that all you thought of me

you can plead im being overdramatic but its been the worst ride ever through my 14 years of being alive

you dont fucking know what i went through just for you to undermine my situation

you think i was just being an fake suicidal immature child that would fake suicidal thoughts for sympathy

you dont know how much ive suffered my whole life

the entire
fucking thin g

i hate you

im still on twitter with the same handle

but if you know me from here please leave me alone

i dont want to talk to you

ever

thank you for giving me the kick i needed to see through you

though the fnf community isnt the best its treated me miles better than what i had to experience being in the yoshi community

i may deactivate this account or whatever but ill probably forget

i dont care really

if you knew me for who i was before im just going to come out and say it was all fake

fuck the yoshi shit and fuck the ocs i made

this era was the worst

i got porn of my oc drawn
harassed by many
was stalked and groomed by nsfw accounts
felt unsafe everywhere i went
all at the age of 12-13

if anything i feel more free being able to be me

even if i hate myself and what i have accomplish and or going to accomplish its almost reassuring

every relationship to any community ive been in has been a toxic one but its whatever now

its nice to break out the loop

it just upsets me to be reminded of this era after i did the whole unfollowing spree on twitter and whatever

im glad its over though

ive found a better community that i feel more at home with though im sure that they hate me

but ive always thought that and stuff

deleting this god awful account

next to my furrifinity shit its the last i have to wipe of the whole yoshi thing

id rather forget about everything from that period

im different now and a better person

i dont have to feel the way did

never been on bsky before, but ill try to get used to it