baby just lifted his knee across his belly, tooted dramatically, and laughed at it. gods creation so full of wonders

sorry

when people say: He's such a good baby!
am I not supposed to say, I know :)
i didn't do anything to make him Good & I appreciate he is relatively easy to care for

similarly: You don't look like you had a baby!
i know. & when I was at wits' end postpartum it made me feel more invisible to hear it

going to get destroyed for this take, I know. but, to me, the purple monkey in a bubblegum tree song isn't good

wandered into my bf's lair and was held captive for what seemed like a lifetime

new favorite thing my baby does, now that he can kind of hold his bottle & likes to try, is he clasps his fingers in front of his face & sort of wails at these empty claws until I place the bottle within grasp

i used to think, Wow being a mom is your whole identity now? boring.
And now that it looks like that for me, I'm guessing it's like when you go through puberty & discover a band or sport or hobby & your biology is primed for it (obsessive caretaking or differentiation) so you're temporarily annoying

adding inventor, systems analyst, & resource manager to my CV

seems like the 90s was some golden era for psychological thrillers about an evil elite. what happened to these films? is it like the Twilight Zone depicting an MK Ultra style human experiment? too easy to see the twist coming & no longer passable as clever imagination; just life as we know it 😔

bf mom says I should take up swimming to prevent perineal tear. not finding evidence to support this as a preventive measure, aside from her frequently self-cited n=1 observational study from 1983. should I just tell her I'm getting taint massages from her son instead

I like when the baby does the thing where... ok it feels like he's running around my belly like a hamster in one of those little plastic orbs

good to share

left my plants in the sunroom/enclosed porch, where i normally keep them all winter. but today they've all got frostbite. it's too cold out, folks.

hibernating

Ivan and I went out to inspect the snow & i saw for the first time this species of hypholoma

wait, you have to see this fungus, too!! it looks like it's wearing diamonds 💎