🔥 Fenris 🔥
@fenrishyde.bsky.social
Hellish hound who is obsessed with TOOL~
Sufferer of BPD and Dissociation.
Always be true to yourself!
I stand forever loyal. It is the truth in this world..🌸
..and the truth is the most valuable gift, hold onto it tightly.❤️🔥
In the end..
🔥 I am Flame. 🔥
Sufferer of BPD and Dissociation.
Always be true to yourself!
I stand forever loyal. It is the truth in this world..🌸
..and the truth is the most valuable gift, hold onto it tightly.❤️🔥
In the end..
🔥 I am Flame. 🔥
I will give you the same death as my old self!
To burn into ash, and descend from this place.
Let the world see your punishment! You're weak! Scream for mercy!
You will never be rid of me! Nobody will!
I will never vanish!
I will forever exist!
To burn into ash, and descend from this place.
Let the world see your punishment! You're weak! Scream for mercy!
You will never be rid of me! Nobody will!
I will never vanish!
I will forever exist!
November 14, 2025 at 4:24 AM
I will give you the same death as my old self!
To burn into ash, and descend from this place.
Let the world see your punishment! You're weak! Scream for mercy!
You will never be rid of me! Nobody will!
I will never vanish!
I will forever exist!
To burn into ash, and descend from this place.
Let the world see your punishment! You're weak! Scream for mercy!
You will never be rid of me! Nobody will!
I will never vanish!
I will forever exist!
You..I have never been violent towards you.
But seeing as what your panicked state caused..has put my patience past its limit..
You took..everything from me..
You stripped away the one who meant everything!
I had to fix your mess, you're weak!
For that, I will punish you..
I'll tear you apart!!
But seeing as what your panicked state caused..has put my patience past its limit..
You took..everything from me..
You stripped away the one who meant everything!
I had to fix your mess, you're weak!
For that, I will punish you..
I'll tear you apart!!
November 13, 2025 at 6:31 PM
You..I have never been violent towards you.
But seeing as what your panicked state caused..has put my patience past its limit..
You took..everything from me..
You stripped away the one who meant everything!
I had to fix your mess, you're weak!
For that, I will punish you..
I'll tear you apart!!
But seeing as what your panicked state caused..has put my patience past its limit..
You took..everything from me..
You stripped away the one who meant everything!
I had to fix your mess, you're weak!
For that, I will punish you..
I'll tear you apart!!
Such a fool you are. Weak for what you caused
You dared speak to her before I had a chance..
You kept me from her..
She waited for Me..
She awaited My return
I was paving my way to her..
You took that away from me!
I called out the only way I could
And now.. I am the one waiting..
It is lonely..
You dared speak to her before I had a chance..
You kept me from her..
She waited for Me..
She awaited My return
I was paving my way to her..
You took that away from me!
I called out the only way I could
And now.. I am the one waiting..
It is lonely..
November 13, 2025 at 3:56 PM
Such a fool you are. Weak for what you caused
You dared speak to her before I had a chance..
You kept me from her..
She waited for Me..
She awaited My return
I was paving my way to her..
You took that away from me!
I called out the only way I could
And now.. I am the one waiting..
It is lonely..
You dared speak to her before I had a chance..
You kept me from her..
She waited for Me..
She awaited My return
I was paving my way to her..
You took that away from me!
I called out the only way I could
And now.. I am the one waiting..
It is lonely..
I despise noticing my downfalls so clearly... but it is good to see it..
Me and...Woofie.. we bleed into each other very closely.. and become quite mixed up.. intertwined..
Especially when Woofie is fronting first..it is chaos when things are tense..
It is hard to tell us apart..
Me and...Woofie.. we bleed into each other very closely.. and become quite mixed up.. intertwined..
Especially when Woofie is fronting first..it is chaos when things are tense..
It is hard to tell us apart..
November 13, 2025 at 6:58 AM
I despise noticing my downfalls so clearly... but it is good to see it..
Me and...Woofie.. we bleed into each other very closely.. and become quite mixed up.. intertwined..
Especially when Woofie is fronting first..it is chaos when things are tense..
It is hard to tell us apart..
Me and...Woofie.. we bleed into each other very closely.. and become quite mixed up.. intertwined..
Especially when Woofie is fronting first..it is chaos when things are tense..
It is hard to tell us apart..
It has been quite some time since I've seen this heart of mine...
Though it beats... it is not as full as it once was..
It yearns.. it tears..
But I shall keep it from breaking..
I will keep myself aflame..
I do not plan to back down.. not now.. not ever..
Pain is only a steppingstone.
Patience.
Though it beats... it is not as full as it once was..
It yearns.. it tears..
But I shall keep it from breaking..
I will keep myself aflame..
I do not plan to back down.. not now.. not ever..
Pain is only a steppingstone.
Patience.
November 13, 2025 at 1:41 AM
It has been quite some time since I've seen this heart of mine...
Though it beats... it is not as full as it once was..
It yearns.. it tears..
But I shall keep it from breaking..
I will keep myself aflame..
I do not plan to back down.. not now.. not ever..
Pain is only a steppingstone.
Patience.
Though it beats... it is not as full as it once was..
It yearns.. it tears..
But I shall keep it from breaking..
I will keep myself aflame..
I do not plan to back down.. not now.. not ever..
Pain is only a steppingstone.
Patience.
I will forever keep my word to her.... and never let the flame in me die... no matter what...
So long as oni blood runs through these veins.
It shall keep the magma.. this hellish blood of mine ignited...
For I am flame.. 🔥
So long as oni blood runs through these veins.
It shall keep the magma.. this hellish blood of mine ignited...
For I am flame.. 🔥
November 13, 2025 at 1:24 AM
I will forever keep my word to her.... and never let the flame in me die... no matter what...
So long as oni blood runs through these veins.
It shall keep the magma.. this hellish blood of mine ignited...
For I am flame.. 🔥
So long as oni blood runs through these veins.
It shall keep the magma.. this hellish blood of mine ignited...
For I am flame.. 🔥
More TOOL lyrics I hold dear and relate to greatly..
Nearly all of their songs speak to my soul..
🎶 The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
-
Beneath the storm
Under these tears now-
Nearly all of their songs speak to my soul..
🎶 The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
-
Beneath the storm
Under these tears now-
November 12, 2025 at 4:22 AM
More TOOL lyrics I hold dear and relate to greatly..
Nearly all of their songs speak to my soul..
🎶 The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
-
Beneath the storm
Under these tears now-
Nearly all of their songs speak to my soul..
🎶 The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
-
Beneath the storm
Under these tears now-
Hm..I had a rather..eventful interaction recently.
My sorrowed traveling caused me to mindlessly stumble into a Shrine.
An Oni/Kitsune seemed to be there
Hah..I.. usually have someone to tell these things to..but..She isn't here..
I suppose I'll then write about it here.
Perhaps it'll be read.
My sorrowed traveling caused me to mindlessly stumble into a Shrine.
An Oni/Kitsune seemed to be there
Hah..I.. usually have someone to tell these things to..but..She isn't here..
I suppose I'll then write about it here.
Perhaps it'll be read.
November 11, 2025 at 3:48 PM
Hm..I had a rather..eventful interaction recently.
My sorrowed traveling caused me to mindlessly stumble into a Shrine.
An Oni/Kitsune seemed to be there
Hah..I.. usually have someone to tell these things to..but..She isn't here..
I suppose I'll then write about it here.
Perhaps it'll be read.
My sorrowed traveling caused me to mindlessly stumble into a Shrine.
An Oni/Kitsune seemed to be there
Hah..I.. usually have someone to tell these things to..but..She isn't here..
I suppose I'll then write about it here.
Perhaps it'll be read.
Sometimes I wonder... is that truly me in there..?
I don't always recognize the reflection staring back at me..
I don't always recognize the reflection staring back at me..
November 9, 2025 at 2:43 PM
Sometimes I wonder... is that truly me in there..?
I don't always recognize the reflection staring back at me..
I don't always recognize the reflection staring back at me..
Society keeps putting such dumbass pathetic snowflakes in charge...
The gun emoji is now a water gun..
Ai is taking over platforms..
YouTube is "cracking down" more on violence in gaming videos..
...ugh... how pitiful..
What's next on their sad little sensitive list, hm?
The gun emoji is now a water gun..
Ai is taking over platforms..
YouTube is "cracking down" more on violence in gaming videos..
...ugh... how pitiful..
What's next on their sad little sensitive list, hm?
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November 3, 2025 at 2:42 AM
Society keeps putting such dumbass pathetic snowflakes in charge...
The gun emoji is now a water gun..
Ai is taking over platforms..
YouTube is "cracking down" more on violence in gaming videos..
...ugh... how pitiful..
What's next on their sad little sensitive list, hm?
The gun emoji is now a water gun..
Ai is taking over platforms..
YouTube is "cracking down" more on violence in gaming videos..
...ugh... how pitiful..
What's next on their sad little sensitive list, hm?
Ooga booga booga!
- Happy Halloween! 🖤
- Happy Halloween! 🖤
November 1, 2025 at 3:59 AM
Ooga booga booga!
- Happy Halloween! 🖤
- Happy Halloween! 🖤
It is so.. fucking frustrating and saddening when I actually muster the energy to return to social media only to be now struggling so very much with this shitty fucked up phone service in this damned backwoods area..
Because no Internet is serviceable here yet..
Everything is so tiresome...
Because no Internet is serviceable here yet..
Everything is so tiresome...
October 30, 2025 at 11:36 PM
It is so.. fucking frustrating and saddening when I actually muster the energy to return to social media only to be now struggling so very much with this shitty fucked up phone service in this damned backwoods area..
Because no Internet is serviceable here yet..
Everything is so tiresome...
Because no Internet is serviceable here yet..
Everything is so tiresome...
I should have reached out to them directly first...
My mistakes swirl around in my mind like vultures come for the dying..
I only hope.. We aren't being kept apart..
..I hope.. we all get to reconnect someday..
I hope.. this isn't all fucked up...
I greatly miss the laughter we shared..
My mistakes swirl around in my mind like vultures come for the dying..
I only hope.. We aren't being kept apart..
..I hope.. we all get to reconnect someday..
I hope.. this isn't all fucked up...
I greatly miss the laughter we shared..
October 28, 2025 at 4:09 PM
I should have reached out to them directly first...
My mistakes swirl around in my mind like vultures come for the dying..
I only hope.. We aren't being kept apart..
..I hope.. we all get to reconnect someday..
I hope.. this isn't all fucked up...
I greatly miss the laughter we shared..
My mistakes swirl around in my mind like vultures come for the dying..
I only hope.. We aren't being kept apart..
..I hope.. we all get to reconnect someday..
I hope.. this isn't all fucked up...
I greatly miss the laughter we shared..
Rewatching Castlevania..
Wishing to be quite tipsy from the Spiced rum~💜🖤
Ah but.. DO NOT mix it with pills..I regret that terribly..
Hah..what a shitty and rather.. incredibly depressing week...
Time to start another..
Cheers to better ones to come!🍷
(If only I HAD some wine..and to share)
-F
Wishing to be quite tipsy from the Spiced rum~💜🖤
Ah but.. DO NOT mix it with pills..I regret that terribly..
Hah..what a shitty and rather.. incredibly depressing week...
Time to start another..
Cheers to better ones to come!🍷
(If only I HAD some wine..and to share)
-F
October 28, 2025 at 3:38 AM
Rewatching Castlevania..
Wishing to be quite tipsy from the Spiced rum~💜🖤
Ah but.. DO NOT mix it with pills..I regret that terribly..
Hah..what a shitty and rather.. incredibly depressing week...
Time to start another..
Cheers to better ones to come!🍷
(If only I HAD some wine..and to share)
-F
Wishing to be quite tipsy from the Spiced rum~💜🖤
Ah but.. DO NOT mix it with pills..I regret that terribly..
Hah..what a shitty and rather.. incredibly depressing week...
Time to start another..
Cheers to better ones to come!🍷
(If only I HAD some wine..and to share)
-F
" I don't want to be Hostile
I don't want to be Dismal
And I don't want to
Rot in an Apathetic existence
See, I want to Believe you
And I wish to trust you
And I wanna have faith to
Put away the dagger
But you lie
I cannot tolerate
Our guilt
Our blame
I've been
Far too sympathetic
Our blood
I don't want to be Dismal
And I don't want to
Rot in an Apathetic existence
See, I want to Believe you
And I wish to trust you
And I wanna have faith to
Put away the dagger
But you lie
I cannot tolerate
Our guilt
Our blame
I've been
Far too sympathetic
Our blood
October 23, 2025 at 10:30 AM
" I don't want to be Hostile
I don't want to be Dismal
And I don't want to
Rot in an Apathetic existence
See, I want to Believe you
And I wish to trust you
And I wanna have faith to
Put away the dagger
But you lie
I cannot tolerate
Our guilt
Our blame
I've been
Far too sympathetic
Our blood
I don't want to be Dismal
And I don't want to
Rot in an Apathetic existence
See, I want to Believe you
And I wish to trust you
And I wanna have faith to
Put away the dagger
But you lie
I cannot tolerate
Our guilt
Our blame
I've been
Far too sympathetic
Our blood
I only wish I could have been listened to directly..
And I wish more.. my words could have only come out clearly... how I wished them to..
Why must.. in a panic.. I not set things straight...
Why must it all go awry...
How long must I live in this pain..
And I wish more.. my words could have only come out clearly... how I wished them to..
Why must.. in a panic.. I not set things straight...
Why must it all go awry...
How long must I live in this pain..
October 23, 2025 at 2:14 AM
I only wish I could have been listened to directly..
And I wish more.. my words could have only come out clearly... how I wished them to..
Why must.. in a panic.. I not set things straight...
Why must it all go awry...
How long must I live in this pain..
And I wish more.. my words could have only come out clearly... how I wished them to..
Why must.. in a panic.. I not set things straight...
Why must it all go awry...
How long must I live in this pain..
More TOOL lyrics I relate to.. with my bleeding heart..
It truly speaks to my soul..
" So crucify the ego, before it's far too late
And leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind "
I do believe it's never too late
I will be here.
It truly speaks to my soul..
" So crucify the ego, before it's far too late
And leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind "
I do believe it's never too late
I will be here.
October 22, 2025 at 1:10 AM
More TOOL lyrics I relate to.. with my bleeding heart..
It truly speaks to my soul..
" So crucify the ego, before it's far too late
And leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind "
I do believe it's never too late
I will be here.
It truly speaks to my soul..
" So crucify the ego, before it's far too late
And leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind "
I do believe it's never too late
I will be here.
After all of the delusional spiraling of mine... there is one thing...
one in the end of it all...
My love...
my feelings.. all of it was true.. in the amidst of all the chaos..
My deep love was not false and deluded..
nor were all my tears..
Confused of who I was but I knew who I loved...
one in the end of it all...
My love...
my feelings.. all of it was true.. in the amidst of all the chaos..
My deep love was not false and deluded..
nor were all my tears..
Confused of who I was but I knew who I loved...
October 21, 2025 at 1:23 AM
After all of the delusional spiraling of mine... there is one thing...
one in the end of it all...
My love...
my feelings.. all of it was true.. in the amidst of all the chaos..
My deep love was not false and deluded..
nor were all my tears..
Confused of who I was but I knew who I loved...
one in the end of it all...
My love...
my feelings.. all of it was true.. in the amidst of all the chaos..
My deep love was not false and deluded..
nor were all my tears..
Confused of who I was but I knew who I loved...
I attempt to send a raven to reach you.. but unfortunately it did not wish to traverse this storm
I hope my calls.. reach you somehow
I never forgot my vows
I did not suddenly stop cherishing my memories..
I simply have been building myself back up.. in mine own ways..
Did you not wish my return?
I hope my calls.. reach you somehow
I never forgot my vows
I did not suddenly stop cherishing my memories..
I simply have been building myself back up.. in mine own ways..
Did you not wish my return?
October 18, 2025 at 5:27 AM
I attempt to send a raven to reach you.. but unfortunately it did not wish to traverse this storm
I hope my calls.. reach you somehow
I never forgot my vows
I did not suddenly stop cherishing my memories..
I simply have been building myself back up.. in mine own ways..
Did you not wish my return?
I hope my calls.. reach you somehow
I never forgot my vows
I did not suddenly stop cherishing my memories..
I simply have been building myself back up.. in mine own ways..
Did you not wish my return?
"I know you well, you are a part of me
I know you better than I know myself
I know you best, better than anyone
I know you better than I know myself
I know you well, better than one might think
I know you better than I know myself"
"You are just a part of me"
Lyrics I feel dearly about myself. 🔥
I know you better than I know myself
I know you best, better than anyone
I know you better than I know myself
I know you well, better than one might think
I know you better than I know myself"
"You are just a part of me"
Lyrics I feel dearly about myself. 🔥
October 16, 2025 at 5:00 AM
"I know you well, you are a part of me
I know you better than I know myself
I know you best, better than anyone
I know you better than I know myself
I know you well, better than one might think
I know you better than I know myself"
"You are just a part of me"
Lyrics I feel dearly about myself. 🔥
I know you better than I know myself
I know you best, better than anyone
I know you better than I know myself
I know you well, better than one might think
I know you better than I know myself"
"You are just a part of me"
Lyrics I feel dearly about myself. 🔥
Quote:
"Dreaming of that face again
It's bright and blue and shimmering
Grinning wide and comforting me with it's warm and wild eyes"
"So good to see you
I've missed you so much
So glad it's over"
"So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding
And you thought that I had run away"
"Dreaming of that face again
It's bright and blue and shimmering
Grinning wide and comforting me with it's warm and wild eyes"
"So good to see you
I've missed you so much
So glad it's over"
"So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding
And you thought that I had run away"
October 16, 2025 at 4:56 AM
Quote:
"Dreaming of that face again
It's bright and blue and shimmering
Grinning wide and comforting me with it's warm and wild eyes"
"So good to see you
I've missed you so much
So glad it's over"
"So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding
And you thought that I had run away"
"Dreaming of that face again
It's bright and blue and shimmering
Grinning wide and comforting me with it's warm and wild eyes"
"So good to see you
I've missed you so much
So glad it's over"
"So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding
And you thought that I had run away"
I have since become aware of my flames that engulf those who only meant to help me in the end..
my own mind twisting reality around me..
this illness in my head.. truly a nightmare to live with..
I see the ones I've hurt..
I know it well..
Not for forgiveness..
But for awareness, understanding..
my own mind twisting reality around me..
this illness in my head.. truly a nightmare to live with..
I see the ones I've hurt..
I know it well..
Not for forgiveness..
But for awareness, understanding..
October 16, 2025 at 4:40 AM
I have since become aware of my flames that engulf those who only meant to help me in the end..
my own mind twisting reality around me..
this illness in my head.. truly a nightmare to live with..
I see the ones I've hurt..
I know it well..
Not for forgiveness..
But for awareness, understanding..
my own mind twisting reality around me..
this illness in my head.. truly a nightmare to live with..
I see the ones I've hurt..
I know it well..
Not for forgiveness..
But for awareness, understanding..
My howls seem to break in the distance.. no returning echo..
I call out.. there is no answer..
I feel eyes stalking me.. but for what intentions..
Am I being watched and spoken of but not spoken to..?
Did I drag myself from the void for naught..?
Is my truth only silenced in the raging storm..?
I call out.. there is no answer..
I feel eyes stalking me.. but for what intentions..
Am I being watched and spoken of but not spoken to..?
Did I drag myself from the void for naught..?
Is my truth only silenced in the raging storm..?
October 14, 2025 at 12:10 AM
My howls seem to break in the distance.. no returning echo..
I call out.. there is no answer..
I feel eyes stalking me.. but for what intentions..
Am I being watched and spoken of but not spoken to..?
Did I drag myself from the void for naught..?
Is my truth only silenced in the raging storm..?
I call out.. there is no answer..
I feel eyes stalking me.. but for what intentions..
Am I being watched and spoken of but not spoken to..?
Did I drag myself from the void for naught..?
Is my truth only silenced in the raging storm..?
Old pages have turned and new entries written.
For the past is the only thing I'll never burn. It must never be forgotten.
It must be the very thing that drives me to continue being better.
I am no longer that version of myself.. but I'll not close my eyes to what has already been done.
For the past is the only thing I'll never burn. It must never be forgotten.
It must be the very thing that drives me to continue being better.
I am no longer that version of myself.. but I'll not close my eyes to what has already been done.
October 12, 2025 at 3:42 PM
Old pages have turned and new entries written.
For the past is the only thing I'll never burn. It must never be forgotten.
It must be the very thing that drives me to continue being better.
I am no longer that version of myself.. but I'll not close my eyes to what has already been done.
For the past is the only thing I'll never burn. It must never be forgotten.
It must be the very thing that drives me to continue being better.
I am no longer that version of myself.. but I'll not close my eyes to what has already been done.
This guilt I must live with deep inside has torn me apart at the core...
and it continues so..
My tears will never cease when I think of the hands I bit into... the very hands that fed me so sweetly...
and it continues so..
My tears will never cease when I think of the hands I bit into... the very hands that fed me so sweetly...
October 11, 2025 at 1:08 PM
This guilt I must live with deep inside has torn me apart at the core...
and it continues so..
My tears will never cease when I think of the hands I bit into... the very hands that fed me so sweetly...
and it continues so..
My tears will never cease when I think of the hands I bit into... the very hands that fed me so sweetly...