Had my first love (I'm pretty sure), ended awfully. Did my best, sucks but i have to keep on pushing forward.

Yeah well a lot happened, especially the last post, that was a mistake lmao. "Throwing" yourself out there isn't that nice, although I'm finding out a lot about myself.

bam bam bam, tomorrow is the day, i have to take the chance to get rid of the weight of the first time.

Feeling a lot better, some friends talked with me till now. I'm grateful for all of you.

And when they approach me first I get this feeling that it's not really me they see. Maybe I'm the problem after all.

I try to connect with people, but they don't have the patience for it. Maybe I'm just not that interesting.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm aromantic, but I still want to have hope for a perfect love.

I wanna try falling in love. I just don't know how.